I saw his Tumblr post, this is all my fault. I immediately turned around driving back to the hotel trying my hardest not to break down, I was on the brink of tears.
I quickly and flawlessly pulled into a parking spot running into the hotel and pass the manager yelling at me up to our room. I turned the knob where it was locked, this is where my tears ran down as I slammed my shoulder into the door which felt like an hour of pain inducing on my arm, but finally it opened.
When I entered all I saw was blood and my dear ginger cat laying on the bed covered in it with squidgy laying next to him. I took my jacket off and pressed It roughly to the bleeding arm, he was so lucky he didn't hit a vein. Tears fell on his face as I pecked his cheek picking him up in my arms carrying him down to the front office barely able to contain the screams and sobs that escaped my throat.
The manager got bandages which I said I would handle it, I took the first aid kit then grabbed a bunch of stuff, I uncovered his arm to see a word that I regretted saying carved in his arm.
That's when I seriously broke down that I caused him to do this.
I caused him to hate himself..to carve words into his skin. That's when a tingly sensation came to my hip, I cried more knowing he would never know about my past if he didn't make it out of this, I saw his droopy eyes open a bit before shutting. I held his hand as I wrapped his arm tight trying to stop the bleeding. Finally the paramedics rushed in taking him away to a hospital as I cried in a hotel chair, burying myself in tears about my baby. My love. Who now is my life whether my dad, my sister or my step mom hates me or not.
I am going to be with him.
Because he is what makes me a better person.
He is the reason, I can smile.
He is the reason I stopped carving words in my hips.
He is my world, and I need him.
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Authors Note
Bones exposed came on pandora as I was writing this /.\
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De Todo"Somebody come get him, he's dancing like a stripper."
