You Can't Save Everyone

Chapter 4 - Tough Luck Buttercup

A/n- Issa long ass chapter y'all, enjoy!

"He killed my sister"

My hands flew up to my mouth and covered it as Nat just stared blankly at me.

"Well that's definitely a good reason to hate someone" Nat said almost in disbelief at what I'd just revealed.

I let my hands fall to my sides, "I can't believe I just told you that..." I whispered. "No one knows... I never told anyone.... why did I just blurt it out so easily?!" I was unconciously voicing my thoughts.

"That's probably my fault..." Nat said awkwardly and I just frowned at her. "I'm very good at poking the bear enough to get the information I want. I knew you were agitated after your yelling match with Bucky and so I thought if I could get the deep dark secret out of you by nudging you enough... then maybe you and Bucky could settle your differences."

"You shouldn't have done that." I said darkly. It was my fault for dropping my guard too much but it was easier to blame Natasha for manipulating me. "Get out." I said quietly.

"Y/n I didn't-" she started.

"GET OUT!" I roared, shaking a little. Nat jumped at my volume and made her way towards my door. She stopped just before her hand turned the handle.

"I won't tell anyone y/n." She said to me.

"That would be wise." I walked over to her and pressed the point of the knife that I always kept strapped to my hip against her chest. I whispered threateningly and could see the goosebumps on Natasha's arms, "If you breath a word of this.... I won't hesitate the kill you. What's the world without one less Avenger to corrupt it?"

I pulled my knife away and let Nat exit my room. Then I threw my knife in frustration so it landed in the wall above my bed. I slid down the back of my door until I was sat on my floor and allowed a few tears to escape as I thought about my little sister and the life she was robbed of. I'd always hoped that telling someone about her would provide me with some release but it only brought memories of her closer to the surface... and it heightened my already burning hatred for Barnes. This godforesaken team was not getting another drop of information about my life out of me. We'd work together to take out Hydra and that was it.

NAT POV
I left y/n's room feeling unbelievably guilty and sorry for her. For just a few minutes, she had shown me so much more of who she was, allowed herself to be vulnerable... and I had taken advantage of it. I had given her yet another reason not to trust us.

I could've pushed her off of me when she brought out the knife but she was a lot stronger than me and I felt as if I deserved her threat. She and I were very alike and I think a big part of me wanted her to be able to confide in me. I vowed to myself that I'd keep her secret safe and hoped it'd be enough to show her that she can trust me. Maybe one day she'd share it with others, maybe she'd even share it with Barnes... that wasn't up to me though.

"You ok Nat?" Steve asked as I walked into the lounge in a sort of daydream.

"Yeah I'm fine" I said snapping out of it.

I sat down next to him and he wrapped an arm around my shoulders. We'd been together for a few months now and it was really good. He was as kind as you'd expect from Captain America but he was funnier than people gave him credit for. Plus, he's chiseled like a God. Thank you Serum🙌🏻

"Where'd you go?" Steve asked me.

"I went to check on y/n" I replied and Bucky chuckled.

"Why do you care how she is? She's crazy." Bucky laughed and twirled his finger at the side of his head.