y/n stark and the avengers journey

~chapter 30~buckys meltdown~

We park up somwhear near the old flats after about 20 minutes of trying to find a parking stop .

"I'll walk you up, last time I came here I got pounded in the face." Steve laughs

"Thanks" I laugh.

Steve walks me up to buckys apartment.

Steve knocks on the door.

"Who, the fuck is knocking at my door" we hear Bucky say slightly slurred.

"Buck? Y/n is here" Steve says.

"You can come in but leave the cheater outside" Bucky slurs.

I walk in anyway and see him sipping what looked like his 13rd beer. He wasn't drunk but he was tipsy, enough to know what he was doing.

"I told you not to come in" Bucky says still stood at the fridge.

"Buck, I thought we talked about this, you can't drink every time you get down, I thought you got over this problem , I swear we made a deal that you agreed to."  Steve says putting his phone and keys on the table , somhow the ancient dumbass started a video call on the avengers gc.

"No, you made the deal, I never agreed." Bucky says still drinking the beer.

Steve steals the beer off him. "Buck, stop this. You can't go back to an alco-" Steve says getting cut of mid word by Bucky.

"Don't bring this up with y/n here" bucky sighs.

"Bucky I don't give a shit you can't go back to an alcoholic." Steve says.

Bukcy grabs the beer out Steve's hand and throws it against the wall with a lot of force, smashing it into a million pieces.

"I TOLD YOU NOT TO FUCKING BRING THST UP" bucky shouts in Steve's face.

"James... calm down" Steve says in a calm tone.

"NO STEVE! IM SICK OF YOU SAYING THAT, YOU'VE SAID THAT 14 TIMES!" Bucky shouts even louder

"Becuase 14 times you've gone into a really dark situation and always resulted in drinking." Steve says still remaining clam

Bucky then slowly walks away from Steve.

"Buck-" I say walking towards him.

Bucky then pushes me into the wall very hard.

"JAMES!" Steve shouts.

"Ohh shit," Bucky says regretting what he just did.

"SEE THIS IS WHY YOU CANT DRINK!"

"I don't give a shit, my dad used to do it!"

"Yeah and do you know why he quit? Becuase he became an abusive prick to you and your mother! You don't wanna turn out like him" Steve says In a slightly louder tone.

"Fine" Bucky sits back on the couch. He then looks like he wants to cry but doesnt.

"Y/n ... could you stand outside for a second" Steve says calmly.

"Yep" I say holding back my tears too and I step outside in the hall.

Bucky sat on his couch and cried.

"Buck , this happens every time."

"I know I know but I just shoved her into the wall" bucky says banging his head on the table infront of him. "WHY AM I SO FUCKING STUPID! I REALLY THINK THERE IS SOMTHING WRONG WITH ME! ANYTIME I ACTUALLY ARE ON GOOD TERMS WITH THAT GIRL I MESS IT UP MAJORLY. I SWEAR IM FUCKED!" Bucky shouts crying.

"Buck , your not fucked! None of this would have happened.!" Steve says calm

"Really? I screamed in her face, I've lied to her face, I've threatened her dad, HELL I EVEN KILLED HER GRANDPARENTS! I've annoyed her so much, I pushed her to limit and she cheated on me. I've made her cry I don't even know how many times all when I was sober so adding to the list , I pushed her into the wall when I was a little tipsy." Bucky says crying. "Ok saying this outloud makes me sound like a toxic dickhead."