y/n stark and the avengers journey

~chapter 31~love~

I slowly walk in to see Bucky distort, he looks terrible, his eyes were bloodshot, his leg shouting up and down, his hands scared and scabbed with cuts that haven't healed yet, messy hair, bright red cheeks, puffy eyes with dark circles underneath , tears continuously falling down his face, His chest rising up and down at a face last and his breathe shuddering.

I walk all the way in.

"H-hey buck" I say in a soft tone quietly.

He slowly looks up and me and stands up and walks over to me.

I hug him tight and he hugs me even tighter.

After what ever you call what just happened he really needed a hug.

He hugged me tight and I felt him cry into my shoulder, I had my arms around his neck and he had his tightly wrapped around my back. The hug lasted for what felt like forever until he let go.

"So... any chance you didn't hear any of that."

"I might have heard every word" I say talking in a gentle tone to him.

He falls back in the couch.

"FOR FUCK SAKE , WHY DO I HAVE TO FUCK UO ALL THE TIME!?" he shouts crying me.

"Buck, it's fine don't worry about it" I sat sitting on the coffee table in front of him.

"I still can't belive that just happened , that's like years of shit I've been holding I'm just said out in the open, why the fuck did I do that, why did I say it, Ohh this was a mistake this is bad, shit." Bucky starts panicking and his leg jolts up and down.

"Bucky, what's the worst that could happen."

"I could go back and he had told everyone about what just happened, I could go back and Steve beats me up, I could go back and Steve and tony beat me up, I could go back to Steve constantly making fun of me, I could go back to-"

"Ok I get it, I doubt any of that will happen!" I say trying to re-assure him everything is gonna be ok.

"Did Steve leave his phone here?" I ask pointing to the phone

"Yeah- wait .... he's faced timing the group chat- FUCK NO NO NO NO NO!" bucky starts crying again and throws the phone on the floor thinking it's broke but instead it falls against the wall leaving a perfect shot of me and Bucky in the living room.

"Fuck fuck FUCK FUCK" Bucky shouts as his breathe increases.

"Ok so now Steve doesn't need to tell them because they Jsut saw THE LIVE FUCKING SHOW! FUCK!" Bucky shouts crying.

"ARGGHHHHHH" Bucky litrally screams full of  frustration , anger , distort, heartbreak, panic amd anxiety.

He cry's and cry's and cry's.

"Buck sit down" I say to him but he ignores me.

"Bucky? You listening?" I ask him as he continues to pace up and down wiping his hands on his face.

"BUCKY!?" I shout and he still doesn't hear. "I'm just gonna leave-" I say as I go to reach for the door aphandle but he grabs my wrist.

"Please... don't go..... I-if I'm left alone I have no fucking clue what I'll end up doing but I know it will be dangerous so please don't leave me" Bucky says with a shaking voice again.