Broken Mirrors [IN PROGRESS]

16

The bell rings finally as I walk out the door towards my locker. I see Namjoon in the hallway and he walks towards me. He looks at me gleaming with his dimpled smile.

"Hey Y/N!" He says towards me looking straight into my eyes like that night before. I don't respond and avoid his eyes.

I feel like crying again every time I see him.

"I saw you today and you don't seem okay. Do you want to talk about what's on your mind?" He asks me as I open my locker to grab my lunch.

"Yeah. Let's eat outside today." I declare to him finally.

We walk outside together in silence admiring the hot sunny weather. There was a garden outside the school with benches scattered around to sit and admire the variety of flowers. 

I find a bench underneath the shade and we both sit down together as he scoots in close to me. I couldn't scoot away from him since I was sitting at the end of the bench. So my leg was forced to touch his.

As much as I wanted to think of this as annoying, it was quite cute. Not like I can stop him.

"I need to tell you something."

"You sound serious than usual so it must be important." He states matter of factly as he takes out his bento of food.

"God..." I say frustrated.

Where do I even start with this?

"I'm getting an arranged marriage with one of the princes." I spat out.

He looks at me almost dropping his chopsticks in complete shock.

"No way!" He yells but still having a smile plastered on his face.

Why is he happy?

Wait...I know why.

I sigh frustrated.

"I can't believe you're actually happy about this when I was planning on marrying you after high school!" I annoyingly vocalize to him trying not to shout.

"I'm sorry. I guess I got too excited." He says lowering his voice having an ashamed tone in his voice. I could see a light blush escape his cheeks as I said that.

"I'm so frustrated. I only want to be with you." I blurt out.

We both sat there in silence as I waited for his response.

"Me too."

"I love you so much it hurts." My eyes were blurry and I could feel wet tears falling on my cheeks.

He looks at me, realization filling his eyes.

He wipes my tears with his warm hands and cups my face.

I look the other way.

"You can't touch me remember," I say defensively trying not to smile. 

I appreciated his affection deep down. He steps back giving me space.

"It's kind of hard not to touch you." He says chuckling in his calm voice.

The butterflies emerge from my stomach again and my body heats up.

I can't believe he said that. I touch my cheek, still taken aback by his touch. It's hot as the sun and probably red from his view.

"Oh," I state trying not to feel surprised by his sudden statement.

"I don't know what to do," I continue sipping my water.

We fell into silence for a couple of minutes but I noticed Namjoon wanting to say something but held back putting food into his mouth.

"Maybe it's best if you marry him." He softly says.

"I don't want to."

"Think about it Y/N! You literally have a prince to marry you, someone who doesn't have a broken mirror. Who's rich and handsome. He'll be able to support you finacially when you go to Med schoo-

"I don't even know if I'll be able to go."

Another loud silence is in the air and the wind blows coldly.

"I just want the best for you." He whispers his voice breaking.

"I haven't even told freaking Imani about this!" I yell at him but then I realize.

My promise.

"I will do everything I can so you can have Namjoon."

I took him away from her when I knew she liked him.

I'm a terrible friend.

I'm a whole mess.

I was never even meant to be his.

"Your right."

He looks at me perplexed by my certain turn of perspective but nods.

"Let's forget this ever happened. From now on we are only friends and your my best friend's boyfriend as well."

He didn't say anything but nodded again his face looked sunken.

He came closer to me and I felt arms wrap around me. If it was me from a week ago I would push him off but I held him tight and felt all the tears come out. The sun breaks into the shade and it lightly kisses us with its heat.

I break off of his hug and look into his eyes trying to wipe my tears. The first time I cried in front of him. He looks at me with a warm smile.

"We're hugging as friends." I try to state, justifying it.

He had a subtle smirk on his face knowing I was lying but just nods before I could get notice and angry.

"From now on we are just friends." He announces to me looking straight at me.

"Yes, we are just friends," I repeat after him.

I try to look at his eyes gleaming in the sunlight looking like light milk chocolate differing from its usual earthy brown. They were so beautiful.

He glances back at me and I could feel myself looking away out of embarrassment.

I need to stop, these feelings will go away soon. I need to remember what my goal is and stick with it.

We sit with each other for the rest of the lunch in silence. Forgetting about our past selves and starting a new one.

a/n

hello! long time no see? well, I didn't do an author's note in a long time hahah. I can't believe this is already the sixteenth chapter!! I hope you're enjoying it so far, there were so many things that happened! hope it wasn't as overwhelming but we all need some drama loll. thank you for reading! <333

lots of loveee!!

-Aabidah