Hate & Love

Five.

The third day since I've moved and the third day since I met Gilinsky.

He's something different and honestly I'm not sure why I just let him in in a blink of an eye.

His smile can brighten anybody's day, his hair is jet black and I find myself running my fingers through it sometimes, his hazelish eyes are captuvating, his mint breath, the laugh lord his laugh gives me chills, he makes me feel like a queen and he tries his hardest to understand me and my situation.

"Autumn" I hear him call my name.

"I'm in my room!" I holler back.

It's silent until I hear him by my door.

"You are so obsessed with MTV shows it's ridiculous." He scoffs but sits down and watches with me.

"Why does it feel like you've known me for an eternity when in reality it's only been 72 hours." I laugh as I lay my head on his shoulders.

"It's weird how the world and fate works huh?" He says leaning his head on mine.

"It really is I'm just glad it was you." I sigh.

"Me too. You're such an amazing girl and I'm glad we met 72 hours ago. Cause if we didn't I'd probably be bored out of mind" he laughs.

"How are you ever bored when you have millions of girls swooning over you. Better yet why are you with me instead of one of those millions of girls?" I question. Insecure much?

"Cause those girls aren't you." He says quietly while kissing my temple.

For the first time in a long time I feel something. I feel a spark that wants more. I feel amazing.

"That's why you're the best. I'd be lost without you. Like literally lost and would probably not have found my house." I say sarcastically.

"You ruin every moment I swear" he says rolling me off the bed.

We're startled as we hear Jack

"Guys that was beautiful as fuck. Goals, goals." He says holding up his phone while recording I'm guessing.

"Shit Jack don't do that you scared me!" I say throwing a pillow at him.

"Did you record that?" Gilinsky asks.

"Yes." He replies.

Gilinsky and I roll our eyes
-

Within the next hour I got so much hate. I found it hilarious. People get so jealous because "their" boy(s) are friends with famous girls or certain people, my thoughts on that is, if the person is happy be happy for them, don't hate on the person that makes them happy. It's common sense.

Jack and I are the #1 trend. Like tf. '#Jack&Autumn'

"@JacksGal: @autumnreyes is probably just a booty call that he'll surely get rid of soon #Jack&Autumn"

"@GilinskysQueen: @autumnreyes you're such a slut and you're only with Jack for fame."

"@JacksSlut: @autumnreyes is a piece of  shit. Jack is only taking pity on her cause she's crazy. Lol."

Ouch. Okay.

"Why are you reading that shit?" Jack says angrily taking the phone out my hand and reading the previous hate.

"What the..." He says giving me my phone and typing away on his.

"Jack please just leave it alone. They're just girls that like you a lot and I don't believe it anyways" I say gulping.

"Yes you do. I see it in your eyes. Your almost close to crying." He says mad.

"It's okay.."

"No stop saying it's okay! Cause it's not.  This shit they say to you is not okay! The hate you've gotten since the plane picture has pissed me off so bad. You make me happy and they can't fucking see that!" He shouts

"Why are you shouting at me and why do you care so much! What does it fucking matter!" I shout back.

"Because I'm not losing another amazing girl to something tragic...I don't want you to leave me like she did," his eyes are dark and filled with tears as he falls to his knees me instantly falling with him and him crying into my lap "I'm not losing you. Don't, don't leave me. Don't hurt your self and leave me." He sobs out making me cry.

"Jack, I won't. I won't." I cry harder as he runs his fingers over my scars.

"You can't okay?" He says

"Okay Jack." I says looking up at the ceiling running my hands through his hair.

-

I wake up the next morning in my bed. The memories of what happened flooded back and it pained me to see Jack cry so hard. I never wanted to see that again.

I felt really depressed today and not in the mood to do anything.

I hear my phone ringing and check the Caller I.d.

Grandma it read

Well shit.

"Hello?" I say.

"Hey hun"

"Hi grandma. What's up?" I say suspiciously.

"We all just wanted to check on you. We saw you on the news.."

"What?" What!

"You already have a boyfriend and reportedly pregnant I hear?" She says laughing.

"No boyfriend no baby grams." I laugh as well.

"Okay good. Sorry it's my break and I need to eat so I'll talk to you soon okay? I miss you love you baby." She says hanging up not letting me reply.

I already miss my family but if I went back things would be the same.

My family is so messed up in so many ways.

If I went back home I'd be drinking and partying. Being depressed. Doing stuff I shouldn't.

But our lord works in mysterious way and I'm fine with that.

Strength is what we all need. & Jack Gilinsky.

✖️

&Jesus of course!