He kissed me.
Keefe Sencen kissed me.
Wow.
I can't believe I can say that. I stared blankly at Fitz's bedroom ceiling, wondering what had just happened. Ok, i told myself, breathe. Just breathe. That's something i can do... except it wasn't because breathing meant i was alive and Keefe Sencen was alive and now I was thinking about him. Maybe I didn't have to breathe. Maybe i could just hold my breath like when I was training at Exillium.
Oh god. Why did this have to happen now. When me and Linh were banished... well everyone thought it was because Linh had flooded Atlantis, and it was, but no one knew it was her. It might have been this other hydrokinetic who was there, but Quan told the council, even though Mai and I begged him not to. And it was all my fault. I guess the council would have a probe search her mind but still there was a chance. And why did Quan tell the council?
Because of me.
Because I was gay.
Because the day before Linh flooded Atlantis, he saw me. He saw me kiss a boy. I don't even remember his name. Just some kid. Quan knew. So he told the council. He said i could go with Linh, or he would get me sent to Exile. It was all my fault. My fault that Linh and I had to live in a tent for years. My fault we were discriminated against by the other waywards.
Because we were twins.
Because Linh didn't have control.
Because I was a shade.
But most of all because of me. And it was all my fault.
I got up, stumbling slightly.and walked into Everglens huge kitchen. After about fifteen minutes of wandering around bumping into things, I located the sink and poured myself a glass of water. I heard a creak behind me and whirled around as the shadows darkened slightly. That happens when I have strong emotions or adrenaline rushes. I tried to fight them back to their normal density, but I couldn't focus while seeing what was happening.
"Whoah," said a achingly familiar voice behind me. "Back the T-Rex up. There's no need to get hostile Bangs boy." My fist clenched at the nickname. I think he noticed because he stepped back a little. Tam you idiot he can feel what your feeling I remembered. Unfortunately my brain chose that time to remind me that this was Keefe Sencen the guy who has kissed me today. I tried to cover that feeling up with a wave of anger but I'm not sure it worked.
"What do you want." I asked. It came out harsher than i expected. He looked a tiny bit hurt but maybe it was my imagination.
"I don't want anything from you i just couldn't sleep." I think I actually knew he didn't mean it like that but it just hurt.
"Well I don't want anything to with you either." I spat. I tried to storm out of the room but he blocked my path.
"Tam I—" I pushed him aside and walked away.
For awhile i lay awake thinking. Tam. He called me Tam. Not Bangs boy or some other silly nickname. What was he about to say? What could he have said?
When i fell asleep my dreams always had a pair of ice blue eyes watching me for the shadows. Sometimes they laughed, I don't know if it was at, or with me. Sometimes they cried. Once, or maybe twice, or maybe always they were very very close to mine, but just out of reach. When I woke up I didn't remember my dreams.
Omg everyone i am so so sorry for taking this long to update. If everyone read my comment on the last chapter i really didn't mean it!! I have been kind of sleep depriving myself and haven't had the motivation to update. As an apology I'm posting a little bonus thingy i hope you all like it. Tons of thanks to iggytheimp09 for giving me the motivation to update. If your not already go follow them! Also i cant figure out how do switch my think back to normal its on a weird setting where everything is black. I love y'all thx so much for bothering to read this (censored by cinnamon roll anonymous) final note to iggytheimp09 plz remember our deal and plz plz plz update your Sokeefe fanfic. Sorry again, please vote and comment—I have to say it tho this chapter sucks—anygays thanks so much for reading!! Terrible author out. -->
