wide awake//[t.j.]

History Repeats Itself.

two more weeks later

"i gotta get to the studio. josh and i are recording nico and the niners today and i want to maybe be able to start levitate as well." tyler told me, getting up off the couch. we had been cuddling peacefully since we got home from bringing the kids to school. that was two hours ago.

"awe, i'm gonna miss you. i guess i can work on skittish.." i replied. skittish was the book i was currently working on. it was coming along well. i was very close to finishing it.

"you should! it's coming along so well. i'll be home before dinner."

"okay, have fun recording, i love you."

"i love you too, sunshine."

tyler left and i grabbed my laptop. i opened google docs and i continued writing chapter twenty seven of skittish.

i always loved the city. even though you couldn't see the stars in the sky due to air pollution, there were so many more beautiful sights.

i pushed my laptop away and ran to the bathroom. as soon as i was in front of the toilet, i vomited my entire breakfast.

how strange. must be the bug.

i went to the bathroom sink and opened the medicine cabinet. i went to grab the pepto bismol when i saw my tampons. i realized it had been a while since i had my period.

i opened my period tracker on my phone. it immediately congratulated me and announced that my period was three days late.

of course it wasn't the stomach bug. it was never the bug.

i closed my period tracker and stared at the floor. there was a very high chance that i was in fact pregnant. tyler and i didn't hold back one bit during our honeymoon.

did he even want any more kids? after all that we went through with the twins? i knew i wouldn't mind having another kid running around, but what if tyler didn't? what would i do?

before i made any more assumptions, i decided to take a pregnancy test first.

i got in my car and turned on the music. car radio played and i experienced deja vu. it played the last time i was driving to grab a pregnancy test.

i made it to the dollar store and made my way to the baby isle. i grabbed a pregnancy test and made my way to the cashier. the cashier was a short girl with short purple hair and an oddly familiar face.

now the universe is just fucking with me.

"i guess history really does repeat itself, doesn't it?" the cashier asked me. i chuckled.

"you were the cashier when i went to buy a pregnancy test years ago, right?" i asked. she smiled and nodded.

"yep, that's me. don't worry, i won't tell the clique this time either. even though everyone is dying for content."

"sorry, i can't give any information."

"that's fine, i like all this cryptic stuff. anyways, your total is $7.45."

i swiped my credit card and the cashier gave me my test and receipt. i thanked her and wished her a good night before getting back into my car.

i drove home quickly, eager to take the pregnancy test. within the time that i pondered the fact that i might be pregnant and the time of driving home, i had grown very excited. i had always wanted three kids. i just hoped tyler wanted another one too.

i rushed inside and ran into the bathroom. thankfully, i did have to go. i opened the package and did my business.

i did my thing and then set the test on the sink. while i waited for the results, i quietly sang smithereens.

"for you, i'd go step to a dude much bigger than me." i sang. i began to dance around the huge bathroom.

"for you, i know i would get messed up weigh 153."

"for you, i would get beat to smithereens."

i went from singing smithereens to singing my blood, another new song tyler and josh were working on.

"stay with me. no, you don't need to run. stay wi-"

*beep beep beep*

my timer went off and i rushed to the test. i covered my eyes. here goes nothing.

i smiled as soon as i saw the result. it was positive. i was pregnant again.

i danced around in pure joy. i ignored the fact that tyler may not want more babies. i was excited and i couldn't wait.

i disposed of the pregnancy test and sat down on the couch. i grabbed my laptop and continued writing. except this time i was in a much better mood.

small time skip brought to you by how many members are left in panic! at the disco

"good night, caroline." i said to my daughter.

"g'night mommy." she replied sleepily.

i closed her bedroom door and walked towards noah's room. tyler was tucking him in. i saw tyler kiss noah's forehead and then turn off his light. he saw me and walked towards me.

"ready for bed?" he asked me. i nodded and we made our way to our bedroom.

we got our pajamas on and cuddled up next to each other. i loved being in his arms. it made me feel safe and secure. like nothing else mattered except for the two of us.

"hey, ty?" i asked.

"yes, sweetheart?" he replied. i blushed at his nickname.

"should we have another baby?"

tyler was silent for a moment. i knew he didn't expect my question.

"i don't know, (y/n). i'm kind of happy with how things are with it being just us and the twins. plus, we're releasing trench in october, so would you really want to throw a baby in the mix?"

"n-no i guess not.."

"why do you ask? do you want another baby?"

"no i just had a dream we did." i lied.

"oh okay." tyler replied rolling over to his side. "goodnight my gorgeous wife."

"goodnight, tyler."

now what?