wide awake//[t.j.]

Advice.

the next day

tyler left to go to the studio and i grabbed my phone and dialed debby's number. i needed advice and she was the only person i could think of to ask.

"hey, (y/n)!" debby answered after a few rings.

"hey debs, can i come over? i kinda need advice and it'd be better to talk in person." i asked.

"oh, sure! josh just left for the studio so it's just jim, velma, and i."

"yeah, ty just left too. i'll be over in like 15."

"okey dokey."

i slid my vans on and grabbed my keys. i hadn't made any doctor's appointments yet because i didn't know if i should tell tyler first or wait a while. i really needed advice. that was why i called debby.

i got in my car and turned the heat on. ohio winters were beyond extremely chilly. i knew my car wouldn't heat up until i made it to josh and debby's.

surely enough, i made it to their house and my car was finally warm. i turned it off and made my way to their front door.

i knocked and debby greeted me, mixing something in a bowl.

"hey! come on in." debby greeted me.

"ooh, what are you making?" i asked, curiously.

"brownies. want some when i'm done?"

"i'd love one."

i sat at the table and watched as debby poured the brownie mix into a pan. she then put it in the oven and came to sit by me.

"so, what's on your mind?" debby asked me.

"uhm..so i may or may not be pregnant again." i told her. her face lit up.

"really?! that's amazing, i'm so happy for you. how far along?"

"i don't know. you see, i found out yesterday. i was extremely excited but when ty and i went to bed i asked if we should have any more babies and he said no."

"oh no."

"what do i do debby? how do i tell him? what if he hates me and decides to file for divorce?"

"whoa, whoa, whoa. i'm sure he won't file for divorce, he loves you way too much for that. it takes two to make a baby, (y/n). i'm sure he won't freak out. he may have mentioned not wanting another baby, but that doesn't mean he won't give everything he has to have this one."

"but he seemed so firm on his answer. as if having another baby would be a nightmare. he said it would be a roadblock in his and josh's plans for trench. i know how much his music means to him."

"(y/n), you mean more to him. remember when you had the miscarriage with the twins' brother? he cancelled an entire tour to make sure you were okay for the rest of the pregnancy." debby assured me. i half-smiled at my husband's thoughtfulness from years ago.

"you're right...i just, i don't know. i really need time to think about when i'm going to tell him. that might mean having one appointment without him, but i'm just so nervous about telling him, you know?" i told debby. she nodded.

"whatever you think works best. if you do go to the doctor's without tyler, i will gladly go with you if you'd like." she told me. i smiled and nodded.

"yeah, i'd like that. you're an amazing friend, you know that?"

"you are too. i'm really glad we're best friends."

debby and i talked for a while longer before i decided to head home. she gave me some brownies for the kids and told me to keep her updated on the whole pregnancy situation. i promised her i would and then left.

when i got home i sat on the couch a dialed a number.

i had a doctor's appointment to schedule.