The F5 (Fraternal Five)

Wrong

Panting, Off pulls out and lies beside Gun staring at the ceiling. As he calms down all his senses slowly come back. The sticky sweat all over his body, his dry throat, swollen lips, Gun in his most vulnerable state beside him, breath getting quieter by the second, and the room. The room smells like ... sex.

Fuck.

"We fucked." Off blurts out as the realization hits him.

"We fucked." Gun agrees weakly.

Finally. Finally. Off is dead tired and his mind is hazy as fuck but his heart, his heart is so damn full he can barely contain. He's still in pure bliss with both corners of his lips strained wide until he hears quiet sobs from beside him.

He jolts upright and touches Gun's face, refraining himself from making sudden movements as he internally panics. "Baby, what?? What's wrong?? Talk to me did I hurt you that much?? Damn it, Off, of fucking course you hurt him! I should've taken longer to prep you, shouldn't I?? I swear I'm such an idiot!"

With sad, forlorn eyes Gun meets Off's frustrated gaze. "No Papii but this is not what I imagined our f-first time to be." He chokes back a sob. "That couldn't even count as making love! That was just ... fuck, what was I even thinking? Oh right, I didn't. Shameless piece of shit." He continues to cuss at himself. "Where did all go wrong? We fucked, that's all there is to it ... so what's the difference between me and the girls? I'm just so ... ashamed of myself ... slutty little hypocrite."

"WTF, Gun, that's quite enough! You're nothing like those insignificant girls and I swear if I hear you disrespecting yourself one more time I'll ... I'll ...!" Off trails off as he sees Gun cowering under his blazing stare.

Realizing a second too late what he has done, Off hurriedly pulls his boyfriend in an embrace. And, lowering his voice, tries again, "Baby I'm sorry okay but please, please don't call yourself names it really pisses me—" He stops himself in time, exhaling as he struggles to get it together. "What I meant is. You're nowhere near whatever nonsense you said you were, okay Gun?" Off pulls away to look Gun in the eyes. He waits patiently until the little guy gingerly nods, adding, "If my words aren't enough, let me prove it to you. Okay baby? So what if we did the order wrong? We have all the time in the world to recreate it. Sounds good?"

Gun eventually breaks into a soft smile.

"And I'm sorry ... I should've put more feelings into it I know, but I was so impatient to make you completely mine I must've blacked out a little, stupid me." Off huffs disappointed with himself.

Gun lets out a weak chuckle. "No Papii, it's partly my fault, too. I, too, was holding out a little too long I guess. And damn. For you to be that good on your first time ... you must've lied or I must've underestimated you too much I swear."

Off laughs in relief as Gun looks considerably calmer. "Hey, I am a lot of things but never a liar, okay? So believe me when I say you're different, Gun." He smiles, gently wiping Gun's tears with his thumb. "I love you. I love you so fucking much, please never doubt yourself again. They've got nothing on you, I promise. Okay, crybaby? Why are you crying over this anyway?"

Gun looks away, muttering sadly. "The girls ...."

"They're getting to you huh?"

"I ... miss them." Gun says quietly.

"Oh, baby ...." Off pulls Gun in his arms again. "Ask them to meet. Say you want to clear things up. I'm sure they'll understand. Should I be there or would I only make more trouble for you?"

Gun pulls back to look Off in the eyes. "Papii, please believe me you're so much more than just sex for me?"

"Save it. I never doubt you baby." Off says lying on his side with one hand supporting his head caressing Gun's face.

"Just go along with it please?" Gun pouts with big expectant eyes, making Off go soft instantly.

"Okay, my bad, go on."

"And I really respect you for who you are and enjoy being with you and you can be a bit controlling at times but in general, I think you're amazing and they all missed out, I swear." Gun grins. "Well I, for one, am glad they did, not gonna lie."

"You make me blush." Off smiles amused with Gun's declaration of lo—respect. "Are you always this sweet after sex?"

"And I adore you so much and it has nothing to do with your body." Gun goes on.

Off chuckles. "I'm sure Teacup."

"OK well it doesn't hurt that you're tall and charming and the whole package basically, but. You get it, right?"

"Mm. Of course."

"And you've been very patient with me. And of that I'm really happy. Even if your sex wasn't amazing, which is simply not true, it wouldn't change anything. Let's continue to be with each other like this for a long time, okay?" Gun stiffles a yawn. "And, uh, what else ...."

Off kisses Gun's forehead chuckling. "You done? My turn."

"Aw, Papii—"

"When I first realized my feelings for you I expected to have to wait some more to prove my sincerity to you but what I didn't expect is you feeling guilty for wanting me as much as I want you. But Gun, I'm elated, okay?" Off smiles softly at Gun.

"That's not fair, Papii ...." Gun whines half-awake. "If you smile like that ...."

Off chuckles. "On a different note, and at the risk of making you cry for the second time—that was fantastic I swear the wait was so fucking worth it."

Gun covers his face with his arm shouting, "Ew, shut up, Papii!"

"And I'm wondering if there's a chance for us to proceed to round two before everyone arrives home?"

"I mean ... I'm not particularly against the idea—"

Off pulls Gun's arm away from his face and kisses the rest of his sentence.