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Chapter 25: ℒ𝑒𝓉𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒢𝑜

     I followed Michael up the staircase into the master bedroom and it was no disappointment. It was smaller than the one back at the house but it was definitely set up to be more relaxing, which I could really appreciate at the moment.

"Now you see why I come here to just get away?" Michael asked breaking me from my trance.

"Yes.. I can see." I said putting my head down.

Talking to him was so hard to do right now. Every time I spoke to him or look at him I wanted to cry. I was so emotional. I'm sure the baby played a big part in that as well.

"You don't have to do that you know."

"Do what?" I said confused.

"Hide yourself from me. I know there's a lot of things you're feeling, but you don't have to hide yourself from me Pai. If anything I need to see how you feel I need you to tell me how you feel. You've held so much in for so long I never want you to do that with me."

I almost instantly started to cry. I couldn't help it. My emotions took over me and I couldn't hold it in anymore.

Michael came over to console me but I denied him. I was too emotional to let him do that. With any touch from him would surely send me over the edge. I knew I was protecting myself by doing that. Him consoling me would blind me to the fact he still lied to me. Or did he really?

See there I was, ready to give in. I have to take control of this situation or I'll get lost in it.

"No Michael. I'm not sure if I want you to touch me right now. I want to take a bath. It will do the soothing for me. Will you run us one."

He obliged. I can see the jab I took at his heart affected him.

I really just wanted to ball up in his arms and cry while he held me. But he was the one who was causing my pain. I had to stay strong.

"It's ready love." Michael said to me standing in the doorway of the bathroom.

I had gotten so deep in to my own head I didn't even know some time had passed by.

I got up and walked into the bathroom and my heart just filled with so much warmth.

Michael had placed candles all around the bathroom and turned off all the lights. It's like he strategically placed them so that the light was shining in all the right places. He poured rose petals into the tub and they sat so perfect on top of the bubbles. There was a bottle of champagne next to the tub and I almost instantly got sick again. How would I talk myself out of drinking it? I'll figure something out. Besides, I owed him no explanation of anything. Only thing I owe him is the news of me being pregnant. But when to tell him still haunts me.

"I know you said the bath will soothe you so I made sure it was even more special because I know this will not be the easiest conversation to have. But I'm ready when you are."

Michael turned to undress and even though some part of me hated him right now.. I still felt the same way with watching him undress. I felt that feeling between my legs again, but this time it was the most intense it's ever been.

I turned around to help mask the way I was really feeling.

"I told you ma.. don't do that."

I knew he knew I was hiding something. It was unclear if he knew just what feeling I was having.

"Would you like me to undress you?" He asked waiting for permission.

I wanted so bad to say no. I mean I knew I needed to go about this delicately but every other part of me wanted him too. I felt so weak and it made me want to cry.