Deluged - The Teenage Love ✔️

Chapter 32

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~Nova~

The call was from Ivaan. I had hurried myself to the living room so that Sophia couldn't hear the conversation.

He informed me of my father's death.

To say that I was emotionless could be an understatement, so I just sat and tried to remember the memories or the bond that I had shared with him, but no avail.

That's when I realised that I've never even heard his Damn voice. Feeling his voice, or remembering his voice was a second thing for me.

My heartbeat was running wild at the thought of him being no more, but my mind was calm. Quiet as the water at night.

I wasn't nostalgic at all. Neither did some emotions hit my heart, it was just the same feeling that I used to get after the injections, just a piercing pain in the chest but nothing in the mind at all.

I wanted to cry, but my eyes were completely dry, there wasn't any sign of moisture in them. I didn't experience any sort of emotion.

I was just blank.

Or maybe I had already prepared myself for this.

What really made me feel bad was the fact that I had never seen him in person, and now that he has left us behind, left mom behind. I just wish if I could have once met my father, who was still unknown to me.

Unknown till the day he died. Ivaan had said a few consoling words to me, but there was nothing left for me to console. Because that man never meant anything to me.

He was more like a sand that just gets washed away with each passing wave.

I was just scared for mom. She had been living with the same person her entire life and I cannot imagine her to live a life without him. She had been so depended on him, be it physically or mentally that her only world that she thought was her husband.

That's why it was easier for her to abandon me that way.

That was definitely a fact that I wasn't close to dad, but talking about mom. I am definitely some centimeter close to her.

Just for the fact that she took care of my dreams, even when she was so far from me.

She had send my documents to my dream University and made sure that I got an admission there. And that was the biggest thing and even the only thing that she did for me, keeping aside her constant personality development lectures on The phone call.

Ivaan had already told me that they will be heading to the capital after the cremation ceremony and condolences.

I don't know how I'll manage to see mother, I don't even know how she looks and if she'll be happy to see me.

That's true that I was a disappointment for my family. Just because I got pregnant before marriage and just at 18.

I don't even know if she's forgiven me for this. I don't even know how will I be able to face her.

All these thoughts occupied my wracked brain and I just let the emotionless tears fall free from my eyes.

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