Deluged - The Teenage Love ✔️

Chapter-38

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~Ivaan~

I was waiting for her since a long time. I had decided to pick up her favorite novel till the time she comes back, after singing her sweet lullabies to the kids, but it seems that she'll take another century to return.

I flipped through the 64th page of the book.

*"Cassandra are you sure that's your death wish?"*

The jailor asked the prisoner that was about to be hanged. DEATH WISH. sounds interesting right?

"I am sorry for making you wait for so long.", I heard my Nova's voice from the door.

"What took you so long? Were the kids troubling you?", I asked her impatiently.

Though Ryan has never troubled his mom.

"Mom asked me to massage my hair and after exchanging some conversation I agreed."

"Okay? You could've told me to do it. You know how willing I am for such things. Why did you disturb mom for that and plus are you again on good terms with her?", I bombarded her with so many questions that she seemed perplexed as to which question should she answer first.

"It's not like that. She forced me into it but it felt like heaven. I guess you should take some lessons from her. Ryan and Sophia will be needing them for future.", she told me amusingly and I pouted at that.

"You Mrs. Nova are not going anywhere. You'll be massaging them at day and massaging me at night", I grinned and she rolled her eyes at that.

"Whatever Mr. Ivaan, just accept that you have to live a life without me.", she ordered and my smile faded away at this.

Why does she have to bring this again and again. I haven't imagined any future without the presence of Nova in it. I cannot believe to live a life without her and neither will I live it that way.

"You don't need to say this evey time. Do you get it.
And I am serious this time", I snapped at her

"But that's the truth Ivaan. I don't want to give you any false hopes for tomorrow. You've seen my condition worsening day by day. I always pretend to be fine and chirpy, doesn't mean that I am all we'll going and it's just something that will pass away with time. You need to understand the seriousness Ivaan. Remember today morning how much I had been forced to breathe when I had that severe pain in my chest. It's not going to work out in any condition", she laid down beside me and I closed the novel which I was reading.

"Okay leave all this right now. I know all this. First tell me what's your death wish?", I asked her out of curiosity pretending to be normal as before, but deep inside her words cut me as the knife.

"Death wish? Wait you read the Cassandra part right now?", she chuckled and her laughter took my breath away.

She is too cute to be ignored. She is just adorable. She is mine and I wont let her go anywhere.

"Ya death wish. Have you ever thought about it?", I asked just to divert her sour mood after the serious conversation. I just cannot let her be angry or sad for more than a few minutes, even if that means discussing something that I am not so comfortable with, just like this time.

"Umm.. No death wish as such but ya I've always fantasized about drowning. I had always wanted to know how it feels when you go deep inside the water and feel calm and relaxed. I mean I know I am talking about death but I've always fantasized that", she bubbled and I smiled knowing that.

"So my innocent wife has these typical fantasies. Not bad", I smiled at her and she chuckled after me.

I wasn't willing to talk all this at this time. She was just chuckling and laughing at this because she knows that she'll be leaving all of us behind. She won't have to depart from me, it will be us who will be suffering behind her.

"What's yours? I mean have you ever thought about it?", she asked me and I couldn't ignore her curious eyes despite of the hurt that I was feeling right now.

"Well, thinking a lot about it. I want to die just a second before you. That's my fantasy.", I proclaimed and she giggled at that.

Why does she always have to giggle and laugh out these things. I am serious about it. I don't want her to go away. I just cannot imagine to spend a day without seeing her and here she is just laughing and pretending as if everything is fine between us.

"But my sugar coated husband, what if I die tomorrow while you guys are waiting for me outside the operation theater"

"Why do you think so negative, that too always. It seems that you don't even want to live with us. You know how much I love you right? It hurts when you say that Nova. You need to understand this. It's high time now."

"Tomorrow will be the high time", she said and quickly hid herself inside the blanket so that she doesn't see my offended face.

After a second of silence she peeped from the blanket and then on seeing me hid herself again.

That was amusing but I didn't feel like laughing at that. My lips didn't even think of curving themselves into the smile because my mind was already planning to escape the horrors of tomorrow.

Whatever it was I just couldn't ignore her cuteness. She always acts this cute.

I cuddled her from behind, holding her tight so that she never leaves me alone. After a while of cuddling she slept peacefully in my arms.

I wasn't able to sleep all the time. I was too scared for tomorrow. I just wish that the time frame could stop and I could hold her this way in my arms for ever.

She is the person around whom my life revolves and I cannot even think of letting her go that way.

"I love you my girl.", I told her and placed another kiss on her forehead.

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I had barely slept all night and I saw Nova fiddling in my arms.

"Did you sleep well?", I asked her, rubbing the sleep off my eyes.

"Any girl will sleep peacefully in your strong arms Mr. Handsome."

"That was cringe", I told her and we laughed at that.

"Do you realise it's early morning and we're laughing. I mean how do you get so enthusiastic this early in the morning. I need to know the trick milady", I asked her and she chuckled even more.

I planted a sweet kiss on her forehead and she hugged me in return.

The door creaked and Sophia as well as Ryan came running into the room. Both of them jumping onto us like usual.

"Dad, will mom return this evening?", Ryan asked me and I didn't know what to answer.

"Either we'll return together or else none of us. Be prepared for the latter. I gave him a clear warning and he just gulped it down his throat.

"I love you Ryan and you too Sophia. I'll make sure mother will return healthy and safe", I faked the assurance but Ryan understood what I meant by it.

He has already prepared for anything bad that could happen. He had been living in the boarding school since childhood and I could say that after 5 years of age he hasn't had such a good binding with me when compared to his mother.

I used to return late from work. Sometimes overtime and that's why I wasn't able to give him his time during vacations, but he understood that. It was just when I used to take a leave from the office to take him on 'just boys' trip, we used to spend some quality time.

He isn't depended on either of his parents and that's what I admire the most about my boy.

"You don't love me?", Nova asked politely and I came back to my senses.

"Do you doubt that?", I asked her and she hugged me back while the four of us cuddled ourselves closer to each other.

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"Dad. It's going to be fine. Don't worry.", Ryan whispered in my ears while we were heading towards the hospital.