Chasing Cali (Upper East Side One)

Epilogue Part III

Part III - Forever

I was in a panic when she's not answering my calls. I told her to see me here in our company. I'll surprise her for her birthday, but she's nowhere to be found.

Until it rained, my surprise for her was damaged. I feel so disappointed.

"Sir, lumalakas na po iyong ulan. Pasok na po tayo." It was Tessa, my secretary.

"You can go inside now. I'll stay here." She nodded.

I stayed in the rain. My head was bent down until I felt the warm water flowing on my face. I'm hurt, and I'm crying now. Fuck! Maybe she's still mad at me.

But when she showed up, I felt happy. I was a little bit sad, but when she said sorry, I gave in. I love her so much for me not to forgive her.

I thought it was okay. I thought we'll be okay after that night. But no, it wasn't.

"I'm sorry, Blaze. I can go to Zoey and tell her everything." Maddy asked for my forgiveness and Cali's. Before she can do that, we were seen by Cali inside my office that intensified her doubts.

"If you love me, ibigay mo na sa akin to, Jax. Just let me go."

It fucking hurts to see her cry. I wanted to stop her from crying. I tried to stop the pain she's feeling. But if I want it, I need to let her go. I want to be selfish, but I want her to be happy even that happiness no longer includes me.

"Can't I fix it anymore?" She looked at me and noticed the tears from my eyes. As I looked at her, her face was drenched with tears still stings.

"Huwag muna ngayon. Maybe you can kapag buo na ang tiwala ko sa'yo, Jax."

"If I let you go now, will you still come back for me?"

"I don't know how long it will heal, Jax. I don't know anymore."

I looked up at the ceiling to stop my tears and avoid her face with tears that I inflicted. I squeezed her hand and closed my eyes tightly... damn, it hurts me to do this, but it will also hurt her if I still held on to us.

"Cali, please, just assure me that you'll come back. I need it, baby. Don't take it away from me, please. I love you so much, Cali. I'll do everything you want, even if it will hurt me. Just, come back to me, baby." I whispered. I never thought it would happen to us.

"Jax, no. I don't want you to expect and wait for me. Please, Jax, don't make this hard for me." It was too hard for me to agree to her decisions, but for her, I'll do it.

I just felt my tears stream down my face and almost heard how my heartbreak in pain and regrets. I'll give you what you want now, baby. I'll let you go even though I know it will break me in the process.

"Go, Cali, before I decide that I can't let you go. I love you, baby. Come back to me. I'll wait, baby. I'll wait until you come back. Even if it's too long, I'll wait for you, Cali. I'll take you back soon."

I love her so much, and despite how I can't let her go, and badly I won't do it, but when I saw how she wanted out desperately, I gave in. Even it hurts.

I remembered how I hugged her for the last time. I remember that it almost hurt. I remember being complete with her in my arms but terrified that it will be the last time.

And no matter what I do she slipped away from me again. We had everything planned out. Our future together until I fucked up.

I let her go, and I don't know when she will come back. But I waited. I waited for her.

I was there. I was at the airport. I saw how Cali bid them goodbye, and she forgot about me.

I stood there feeling a tight grip around my heart, squeezing it until I can't do anything but let your tears fall. It hurts so bad that it's unbearable.