Chasing Cali (Upper East Side One)

Chapter Eleven

11 - First

Jax asked as to the nature of Thalia's issue, to which I replied that there was none. Jax was already familiar with Thalia, which is why he didn't ask more.

I cast a peek across at Jax, who was excitedly wandering my surprise for him. Is that the level of happiness you have when you are with her, Jax?

Why did you tell me a lie? I'm slowly becoming exhausted, Jax... With every pain that I'm always experiencing, with every uncertainty that I'm constantly contemplating... malapit na akong mapagod, Jax.

It occurred to me that one tear had escaped from my eye, and I quickly wiped it away, fearing that he might notice. However, I was unsuccessful... May sumunod at pinunasan ko na naman. Until it is constantly pouring out of my eyes, I am unable to stop it and finally let it go completely.

Jax turned around and stared at me from behind. When he saw I was crying, his broad grin became somewhat hesitant. In an instant, he came up to me and looked me in the eyes with concern, worry, and confusion in his eyes.

I tried my hardest to smile at him, but I failed miserably, which is why I bit my lower lip hard instead.

"Baby, why are you crying?" Kita ko ang pagkalito sa mga mata niya kung bakit ako naiyak.

"It's nothing, Jax," I said, shrugging my shoulders and moving away from him. But he wouldn't let me go.

"Did I make you cry? Am I the reason why you're crying? Damn..." He cursed beneath his breath. "Baby, talk to me. Please, I'm sorry if I did anything wrong. Please, stop crying."

I shook my head. "No, no. I'm simply glad that you enjoyed my surprise," I said, doing my best to put on a cheerful face.

He continued to question me, but I refused to tell him what was wrong with me. In an attempt to elicit a response from me, he tried again and again... habang kumakain, habang nasa shower ako, at hanggang sa humiga na kami

To deter him from approaching me, I kissed him, which resulted in another intense night. I'm completely tired from all we did. I willingly surrendered myself to him.

Nagpaubaya ako sa kanya I want to be able to feel my own body underneath his. I want to be enveloped in the warmth, love, passion, and desire that only he can provide. Whatever the case may be, kahiit iyon na lang kahit hindi na ang mga katotohanan. Bumigay ako nangg paulit-ulit.

Jax continued to kiss the back of my neck and nape. After he finished cleaning me, he went back to the bed beside me. Mas lalong hinihigpitan ang kapit niya mula sa likod. I'm resting on his chest, and we're both covered in a white blanket for warmth.

Jax had been asking me what was wrong for quite some time. Bakit ako naiyak? Why doesn't he ask himself that question?

What caused Cali to cry? Is it possible that I did that?

Ganoon sana ang mga tanong niya sa kanyang sarili para malaman niya ang pinagdadaanan ko.

I wanted to shift my attention away from Jax's lies and uncertainties and onto something more essential for me in order to avoid thinking about them.

First and foremost, it was that girl's message that got us into a fight since he was clearly attempting to avoid answering my questions. The second instance was when he misrepresented his client as a man when it turned out to be Maddy.

What else is there? Was there anything he never told me and that he is still keeping hidden? How long I'll be searching for answers in the dark without knowing what I'm looking for?

We were able to maintain our silence by leaning against Jax's muscular chest and remaining motionless in the stillness that had taken over his room. With my thoughts and uncertainties, I can't help but seek the silver lining in every event that has happened to me, despite the circumstances.