So you think you're bold huh?

A/N

Hello:D I wanted to thank all of you who were concerned about me in the past few days- it's been a bit difficult for me to finish up this story but i'm glad I finally did. I also wanted to thank all of you again for being so completely supportive and amazing- of course there is always going to be people who don't like what I do with the story, but the majority of you were filled with so much love despite that. It's more than I could ask for so I'm baffled that my writing has even been seen by this many people let alone received so much positive response.

The process of writing this book was very different than I expected. I got the idea on top of a roof in early may- but didn't start writing until June(I believe) I initially wrote down all the ideas I got for it right off the bat- which I don't normally do with my stories.

Before actually writing I wanted to take the time to finish up some other projects I was working on at the time, but as soon as those were finished I started this one right away(I must admit I rushed a few of my books to get to this one). I'm pretty sure I cranked out five chapters in the first day or two, and it didn't take long for the unusual attention to start. I really didn't expect as many views as I got on this was. My highest view count on a story besides this one is around 2.k which is amazing and i'm extremely grateful for it, but it was definitely a shock when I got more than that in the first week.

I really wanted to capture the essence of rawness in this book. A lot of the fanfics I read are stereotypical and unoriginal. So I wanted to create something I could call my own without doubting my work or pushing it's importance off to the side. I wasn't sure if I got the raw feel that I wanted in the book, but I can say it definitely was an experience unlike no other. I think the rawness of the story really came to life with the way you all and myself connected with the book. I wouldn't call this a realistic book at all. If you take the characters i'm writing about this is a very far stretch from reality. However, the point of fanfic is to take something you love and make it yours.

I haven't been watching these ccs for long- but as soon as I started watching them so much changed. I can comfortably say that they make me a better person and I know a lot of you can probably relate to me on that one.

Most of the stuff that happened in the book weren't planned at all. I didn't plan for Trevor to out George until a few chapters before that one- and I didn't plan on kicking out George until it actually happen. There were so many little things that I added in just for the fun of it as well- like Wilbur and Quackity, that was purely for my own enjoyment. I do apologize to anyone who didn't like that change though.

I also wanted to talk about Drista in this fanfic. I didn't plan on her being such an evident character in the beginning- you can see which direction she was meant to go in with the first chapter(she doesn't like Dream's friends, she's a bit of a pissy teenager, that kind of stuff) but as soon as I started writing her differently, she turned way more emotional than expected. I don't know if any of you picked up on this, but Drista was meant to be you. The way she connected so much to Dream, and hated how much he got shit on, the way she cared so dearly for George, her emotionality and expression, finding herself through Dream. Every little detail that made up Drista was supposed to represent Dream and George's fans.

One of my biggest goals with this book was to represent the beauty of individuality. It's such an under represented thing in most of the DNF fanfics i've seen, but in real life the dream SMP celebrates individuality in its complete raw form. I really wanted to be able to capture it while still telling a captivating story with these characters. I found that once I cut down the standards and "rules" that you see with most fanfics, and really cut it down to the pure individuality that this couple really is, I was able to portray my story a lot easier than anticipated. Obviously there were some unrealistic aspects("some") like Dreams entire character, but I figured, hey, it's a fanfic, and took the unexpected route. A lot of the emotionality incorporated in the book had to do with my own individuality as well. It's been a long journey and the things I wrote and learned while working on this book helped even me out a lot.

I want to encourage all of you to express yourselves. It doesn't matter if you look back in 5 years and think, 'what the fuck was i wearing' as long as you felt good when you were wearing it.

The last thing I wanted to note before officially ending this book is about Dream and George in the fanfic. In the very beginning of writing this I already established that I wanted to heavily focus on their self growth. I feel like it's a really vital part of people at their age and with their situation. And I think it's also a really relatable and emotional thing for their audience as well. So, the only thing I really needed to develop on that was obviously the story itself, but what kind of self growth would both Dream and George be going through. I feel like i'm the beginning we kind of had George dealing with not knowing himself at all, and Dream struggling with not knowing his place in the world. But towards the end when George really started developing this self knowledge of his place and who he is- he just really needed to work on self love. And obviously Dream played s huge part in getting him there but not even just him. His friends, his parents, Dreams friends, himself, and his entire experience with Trevor. It's this entire process and I wanted to glorify the dark as much as the beautiful. I'm not sure if I did that at all, but it's the thought that counts haha!

With Dream though, his character was so interesting for me. You can tell right off the bat this George is an unlikable character and Dream is a very likable character, honestly I feel like y'all only didn't hate him because well...he's George. He was definitely the type that needed a lot of opportunities to prove himself in general. While Dream needed a lot of opportunities for his emotionality to come through rather than his bold style and personality. In the end they definitely went through this journey together- but I wanted to make sure they weren't like this dramatized relationship where the only people they had to lean on and stuff were each other, because honestly that just isn't healthy or realistic. So I had Dreams friend group, and George's separated for a reason- even though a more realistic situation would be a joint friendship with them all. Although, since i'm a Dream SMP fan as well, I couldn't not put in moments and scenes where the groups didn't cross paths. It was mostly for a more light hearted and dependable plot I guess.

Feel free to comment on some moments that stuck out to you- I find it incredibly interesting when y'all do that in the comments so yeah. That's all from me:D

Again, thank you to all of you amazing people who supported me throughout this. I would like to send you on your way now.

IMPORTANT! IM SWITCHING ACCOUNTS FOR A TON OF REASONS IM NOT GOING TO TALK ABOUT HERE BUT ITS CALLED "myapollogies0" so yeah- i'm writing a new DNF fanfic called, "the power of male affection" on that account so check it out whenever I finally get around to finishing the first chapter:D