Emperor of Destruction [EDITING]

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XII

No matter how much I try to forget last night's event, I couldn't. I spent the entire first period thinking about him and how good his tongue felt on me. He knows the difference between a clit and a clitoris, that's for sure.

It's the start of gym class and I still haven't got a single text from him. I don't know why I cared enough about him for a response. I didn't even know I cared until last night. I don't like him. I hate him. I'm not in denial about my feelings because the only thing I feel for him is pure hate. I'm extremely open and accepting to the fact.

I tugged my hair into a ponytail once again. Silas didn't mention my scars yesterday, which made me believe they're invisible to the eye of the crazy.

I didn't skip my step of putting foundation in my thighs to hide the marks. I guess you could say it became a habit over the years. I've done it so many times, I lost count. I think it's for the best. Hey, I get to avoid questions left and right, that's more than enough for me.

After applying lotion and perfume, I shut my locker closed, turning around. A gasp shot out of me, and I have to hold onto my heart to check if it's still beating.

Mia.

"Just because I helped you last night doesn't give you the right to run and cry into the arms of my fiance." She said and I visibly choked up. How the hell did she know that? "Amorèt saw the two of you. Said you guys looked close."

One thing I've learnt about Mia Scuderi is that she's not the typical mean girl cliche. She's calculating and aloof. Knows what she's going to say before the words even come out. Her being one of the most beautiful girls I've ever laid eyes on was a bonus.

I should've walked away last night. I knew what I was getting into the minute I entered the car of someone engaged. I knew what was eventually going to happen, and didn't do a damn thing about it. Except cumming inside his Godforsaken mouth.

Maybe if I went with my guilt feeling and went back inside the club, Silas would've left me alone and I wouldn't be on Mia's radar.

Everything's going to complete and total shit and it's all my fault.

I cursed my urges and my wants and needs. Couldn't I have done it with someone single and who is not a complete psychopath?

I stood up straight, patting down my shorts. "Nothing happened last night." I lied. Fake it till you make it, right?

God, I never thought that one day, I would be the other woman in an engagement.

"I'm not an idiot, Autumn." This was the first time I heard my name come out of her mouth. She places a hand on her hip, cocking it out. "Silas wouldn't invite a girl in his car for a mindless talk." She read me like a book. Her eyes didn't look real as they judged me. They were better suited for a fox. "Especially a lonely, pitiful girl such as yourself. Tell me, did you climax at the thought of fucking someone engaged?"