It had been four days since Axel hit me. I didn't go to school for the rest of the week because I just couldn't face him. The memory of him doing it was unclear but the feeling wasn't.
It was Saturday today and it was the day of Aspen's annual end of year party. She had one of these every year and it has always been one of the hardest parties ever.
I really didn't want to go but I know that Aspen would gutted if I didn't go, and also I really need to get fucked up today or I think I might go crazy. But until then I'm sleeping the whole day and being depressed because I hate the world.
After like 4 hours of me just sleeping, I got woken up by someone blowing up my phone. "WHAT THE FUCK RIYAZ LET ME SLEEP" I shouted angrily at his face since he FaceTimed me.
"Jeez I just wanted to tell you that you had a studio session today at 8:00 but I rescheduled because I know Aspen's throwing her party today" he said in a fed up voice
"Wait, what the fuck is on your face Astrid." Shit, I completely forgot about the stupid fucking black eye that the dickhead gave me.
"Did you get into a fight, did someone hurt you, what happened?" Riyaz said in a concerned tone. I don't know why I just started crying when he said that. "Oh no, what's wrong babes, don't cry"
"He hit me" was all I could say due to my continuous crying. The expression on Riyaz's face was honestly kind of scary. He looked so filled with anger.
"Open the door when I get there Astrid" was all he said before hanging up. After he hung up I just couldn't stop crying no matter how hard I tried. I don't know what's wrong with me.
25 minutes later I heard the doorbell ring and I knew it was Riyaz, so I got out of bed, which took a lot of effort and trudged my way to the front door.
As I got closer to the door I wiped my tears away which was no use because when I opened the door and saw Riyaz's face I started crying again. He was standing there with a bag filled with all my favourite snacks in one hand and was holding like eight different dresses in the other.
"Oh my god baby, I'm so sorry" he said pulling me into a hug. I didn't say anything I was just crying into his shoulder. We eventually pulled away and sat on the couch. "Look Astrid I understand if you don't want to tell me everything that happened, but just know I'm always going to be here for you" He said while putting all of the dresses and snacks down on the coffee table in front of the couch.
"No, I want to tell you otherwise I think I might explode," I said with a faint chuckle. He sat next to me and I told him everything which took me about forty-five minutes because I would stop to cry after like every sentence. What I'm an emotional girl I can't do anything about that. But even Riyaz was crying whilst I was telling him, I could tell he wanted to be strong but we just started crying together.
That was until he just suddenly stopped crying and stood in front of me. " Astrid, I would love to sit here and cry with you but I am too much of a bad bitch to do that and so are you." He said with attitude. "I need you to say you are a bad bitch"
"I'm a bad bitch" I mumbled
"I can't hear you hoe"
"I'm a bad bitch" I said a bit louder rolling my eyes
"Okay I'm going to need you to scream it bestie"
"I'M A BAD BITCH" I screamed at the top of my lungs.
I screamed it so loud that Riyaz flinched a bit but then started laughing. It actually made me feel so much better to scream that because you know what, I am a bad bitch and I'm not going to let some dumb ass fucking guy that can't keep his anger in check ruin my mood.
"Okay so now that you have the mindset of a bad bitch you need to look like one because no offence girlfriend but you do not look cute right now," he said whilst picking up the dresses that he bought and walking to my bedroom. I followed him and he made me sit on the chair at my desk and started going through my makeup bag. "Alright we are going to start by covering the black eye on your face, so tell me if it hurts okay babes." he sighed.
After about half an hour Riyaz had done my hair and makeup and I just had to pick something to wear, The dresses that Riyaz bought were for events that I needed to go to but I definitely didn't want to go over the top because I mean it is a high school party, someone is bound to spill something on me or something.
A little while later, I had picked out an outfit with the help of Riyaz. I wore a cropped shirt that said 'Fuck you, you fucking fuck', bottoms with sheer tights, a big oversized jacket, my white airforces and some chains.
"OKAY BADDIE," Riyaz said as I walked into the living room. I couldn't help but laugh. "Girl, this fit is Instagram worthy we are having a photoshoot right the fuck now," he said pulling out his phone and pointing to the kitchen floor. I took off my big jacket and lay down on the floor and Riyaz took about five thousand pictures but I wasn't complaining.
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I posted that picture and for the first time in days i actually felt somewhat attractive. This is why I love Riyaz, he's one of my best friends even though he's my manager, most people in this industry are baisically robots that are controlled by their team but I'm just thankful that my team isn't like that.
Riyaz ended up dropping me off and he went to this fancy pants restaurant for his date with John, I swear to god if they ever break up or anything like that I'm not believing in love, I'm telling you they are literally relationship goals.
As I entered the not so pleasant smell of weed hit my nose but in this moment I just needed to get high or drunk or something to get my mind of everything, so I made my way to quickly say hi to all of my friends before making my way to the kitchen to grab a bottle of vodka.
I guess a talent of mine is that I can drink vodka with a straight face, like I can drink a whole bottle of it without realising it but I always regret it the day after because the hangovers hit hard as fuck.
I took a sip of the vodka whilst I walked to the backyard where people were basically having sex in the pool and dancing around talking and stuff you know.
I made my way to my group of friends that were sitting around the fire pit because it was weirdly quite cold out today.
"Hey bitches" I said as I sat down next to Amelia and taking another large sip from my bottle of vodka.
"Umm, where the actual fuck have you been" Rio says in a sarcastic but not really sarcastic tone.
"I was sick" I say in monotone voice before drinking more of my vodka. Fuck I've almost finished it. I'm honestly terrified for this hangover tomorrow but fuck it you know.
As I was sitting there listening to my friends conversation about how Ruby and Otis are a better ship than Maeve and Otis from sex education. In my opinion Ruby and Otis where always just supposed to be quick fling because they dragged Otis and Maeve for too long but whatever.
Barely being able to even think straight, I got up to go to the kitchen to get a glass of water. When I reached the kitchen I swear I was seeing thing because oh my god.
Axel was talking to the billie Eilish and Fineness O'Connell
