𝐈 𝐖𝐀𝐍𝐓 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐓𝐎 𝐖𝐀𝐍𝐓 𝐌𝐄 [Discontinued]

A different view

-Jay-

after everything jade just told me I watch her with a completely different pair of eyes. Many would see her as a traumatized girl wich never overcame her traumatic past, but for me? she is one of the strongest women I know.

she endured so much went through misery and back and still here she is laying on my chest trusting me enough to tell me her weak point.
She decided to trust a man again, she decided to trust me again.

And Jade Allysa Lopez I promise it to you I won't disappoint you like your disgrace of a father did.

As cold as my heart might be she makes it beat, the past few weeks it only did beat for her. When you work in the mafia, you have to keep on thing in the back of your head you always have a target on your back the whole damn time, One misstep, one sloppy move of me or my people, and it's over for us. I mean I never knew different, this life was chosen for me before I was even born, but this didn't change the fact I love each part of it, the adrenaline rushes you get every damn time before a mission or an important shipment and the strikes following with it, at some point in my life I even began to enjoy the killing. seeing the fear in my opponent's eyes provides me a feeling of power no one can and ever will give you.

I was trained for it, trained to be the perfect leader. a leader that won't think twice to take your life, a leader that gives off pure fear.

But yet the fact I might be gone as an outcome of my missteps never bothered me as it does now. I even was fine with dying for the mafia I sworn my loyalty to it till I die. but now that I am getting attached to her, way more than I want to be attached to her. I am frightened of her realizing what I do for a living, I am never frightened of anything, but the thought of her not being in my life paralyzes me.

On the other hand, I fear that my darkness might destroy her pure heart.

look at me a ruthless Mercyless killer being on my knees for a law student. She's probably everything I should keep my distance from but I can't.

not a day expires where I don't think of her, she's my first thought when I wake up and my last before I fall asleep. A touch of her is enough to send my body into an absolute madness. her piercing blue eyes, and intelligence that many fantasy of, so tantalizing. one look of her was enough, like a drug addict is addicted to his drug, I am addicted to Her. I am literally craving her.

The attraction I feel towards her makes me loose any logical and tactical thinking. it simply overpoweres me in each possible way. And the only thing I want? is her only for myself. since that evening I met her I haven't even touched another woman, no one could compare to her. I feel magically drawn to her.

I just want to hear her sweet and at the same time soft moans echoing through the room when she's humping on top of me, while I kiss each inch of her perfectly shaped body.
her curves ain't like no other, kissing her full lips while thrusting inside her with my full length sending her off the edge filling her up, claiming her as mines all over again.

it was pure pleasure replaying in my head.

I looked back down at her how perfect she is, I am incapable to take off my eyes of her. She raised her face up inches away from mine, carefully placing her lips on mine. I let a quiet groan getaway my lips after reacting directly by turning that innocent kiss into a lustful one, it was close to overflow with the passion between us.

I pulled down the blinds of the beach bed, I for sure won't give anyone around a free show. placing her in my lap trailing my hand down to her hips rocking them in rhythm with the kiss.

she giggles when I do so...god woman you will be the death of me.

I tuck a strand of her flawless blonde hair behind her ear kissing and brushing my lips on her ear lope whispering in a deep tone reminding her how perfect she is. she replied by allowing a gasp out her perfect lips.

I slip my hand under her bikini top massing her perfect-sized breast.

I slam my lips on hers again, placing my hands lower this time holding her perfect butt in my hands giving it a light squeeze tightening my grip around her. I turn her around pinning her under me. we both maintained kissing nearly melting into each other, her tiny hands started to trail first my chest then close up with my abs. I grab her neck carefully pulling her even closer to me not as if there was any space left to close between us.

our kiss shifted we did hold onto each other as if we were ready to never let go of each other. our tounges danced so generously with each other. I pull away, her forehead against mines attempting to catch my breath again. I look at her face to scan each feature of it, I highly doubt I have ever seen someone as flawless as her.

You could cut the tension between us with a knife, but if I didn't stop now I would've taken her right here right now. I didn't care about the people around but I know she did, and I didn't want her to regret anything between us. I want her to only have good memories of me.

I fix up the top of her bikini opening the blinds afterward. looking at her with just a grin on my face, I stand up hastily tossing her over my shoulder running towards the deep blue ocean. the waves were nearly not existent today, the ocean was way calmer than I remember it from the last time I was here.

''JAY LET ME DOWN RIGHT NOW''

''shush bebecita save the screams for later in the bedroom'' I respond in a cocky tone diving down in the clear water.

''I can't swim'' she panics.

I swam to her swiftly keeping her tiny body wrapped around me in no time ''I am sorry I didn't know'' I mumble fixing her hair out of her face making it hang down her shoulder  "don't be scared, nothing is gonna happen to you when I am around''.

It occurred as if my words were magic I felt her body relaxing by each second, I held her.

''promise'' she whispered with still a bit of fear in her voice.

I lift her chin up by placing my thumb under it, snaking my other arm around her waist.

''I never break my promises '' I reply grinning, while I look deep into her eyes.