Mr D'angelo

At my weakest

"I'm crazy I'm crazy for you oh here I go down that road before I.... but I can't help what I feel some kind of way do you feel the same. Cause I fall I fall for you call me on my weakest."
At my weakest by James Arthur

"Where's the toilet?"

"You see that white door there?" He points at a white door at the corner of the hall.

"Oh yeah the opened one?" Urgh isn't he coming with me?

"Yes my love but don't take too long." He then goes to some weird looking men, like they look so dangerous.

I do my business in the toilet fast fast and as I wash my hands guess who shows up? Yep the one and only Shamila Clem.

I turn to her. "Shamila hey." I greet her awkwardly.

She steps closer to me. "What is wrong with you?" The way she's glaring at me right now! I swear to god if looks could kill I would be taking my last breath as we speak.

How do I even reply to that? I mean I am in the dark, I don't know what in the Namjesus is going on with her.

My emotions are just all over, I don't know what I did. I thought we were family how can they just treat me like this. They know that they're all I have. And fuck these tears that are trying to escape, I am not about to cry.

I finally reply. "I should be the one asking you that." No shit.

"You are naive." She yells with frustration as she balls her fists.

Naive? What is she on about? What is she doing here because the last time I checked, she had some kind of beef with Bella? I'm such a weak as b**** why can't I say all these things to her?

"You even moved in with him!!!"
"And had the audacity to show up with him here!!"
"JUST LEAVE CAN'T YOU SEE THAT NOBODY WANTS YOU HERE!!"
"You're just there for the money huh!!?"
"You think you're the one?? Well you thought wrong because once he's done with your pretty little naive ass he'll lea.."

"SHAMILA!!!" She gets cut off by Franchesco. When did he get here? Oh fuck!!! He looks so angry what happened now?

"D..d..d'ang.." Mila stutters. Oh what happened to her now? Just now she was screaming at me. What was she even talking about?

"Shut up. Rochelle let's go." He orders. Who am I to go against his orders when he's this angry.
And wait did he just tell her to shut up? They're fond of each other.
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We're back at his house and I just changed clothes and ready to sleep but am I?
D'angelo is not present. He just dropped me off because he says he has to "deal with something."

I can't stop thinking about what happened earlier. Something is wrong and somehow I'm in the middle of it. I don't know how and why.

But I am not going to stand up for this. It's now or never. I have to leave but I have nothing on me and what the fuck am I going to do when I get to South Africa. I barely know anyone there. I don't even think that my father's family will welcome me with open arms. I mean when was the last time I saw them, I don't even remember them.

Okay so here's the plan. Franchesco is rich right? Imma have to steal something from him to survive. I mean the guy has kept me locked up in this house for god knows why.
So I'm taking revenge now. Is that wrong?

Okay so what now? What's the plan?
.....
So I managed to get a buyer for Franchesco's jewelry. So I'll meet meet up with him tomorrow then bluh bluh bluh....get ready to leave. I feel so guilty help!
....

So today is the day and I really hope everything goes as planned. There's no way  that Franchesco would lock the house today, I'm pretty sure that by now he trusts that I won't try to go anywhere. Oh and I don't have to worry about him being here or anything haha he's always busy so yeah.

I know what I have to do the only thing that's left is for HIM to leave urgh. Wtf is taking him so long now.

I'm in the kitchen drinking water and he enters. We both stare at each other.

"Aren't you leaving?" I try to sound normal.

He pushes me against the counter not so gently. Oh shit oh shit oh shit.... my heart beat starts beating faster. He's standing so close to me right now to the point where our bodies are touching.

He lifts my chin up and says. "Do you think I don't what you're trying to do?"

Whaaaaaatttt???? Howwwww????

Damn I'm shaking right now. "Uh-oh wuh wuh what a a are you talking about?"

He chuckles. "Listen Rochelle Clem. You thought I wouldn't find out? Who the fuck do you think I am huh?" I think I'm gonna pee, whaaat this guy is so scary.

"Well what was I supposed to do?"
"Tell me!"
"Was I just supposed to ignore what she said?" I'm getting furious now.
I remove his hold on my chin.I raise my voice. "This whole situation is confusing and I'm caught up in it how!?"
"This.... this is bigger than I thought and I'm in the dark. I deserve to know the truth. Now because of this thing or maybe because of you I don't know I-I-I..." Yes so now I'm about to cry because this is actually deeper than it seems. I can't stop the tears now. I have to let everything out now.
"Franchesco I'm at my weakest. I feel myself going down that road again."

He wipes my tears. "Hey hey don't cry talk to me."

"You still have your family. They're not against you. What am I gonna do? I have no one else besides them. They're the only family I know and....and the worst part is that I have no idea what I have done I-I-I-I."

"Okay okay Chelle, please breath. Calm down."

"You have no idea what this feels like. You-you were talking to Mila like you know her or something WHAT IS GOING ON?"

Am I jealous? I don't care I'm telling him about how I feel.
"Franchesco I can't keep ignoring these feelings. I have been in love with you for I don't know how long. But with you treating me like this, keeping me locked up like this. I don't know anymore."
What in the Namjesus am I saying?

At my fucking weakest!

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This song!!😭😭 I'm crying!! Y'all should listen to it.