There is a clear difference in kissing. One was for lust, meant to excite and give pleasure to the receiving, as a plus on to tie in all the ingridients for good sex. The other was for love, showing affection and those deep emotional feelings that both parties were in need of.The lines were blurring.
Wanting this to be a strictly physical relationship, other elements started to incorporate their way into your escapades. And now Spike knows almost everything about you. Eating habits, what makes you laugh, and the type of people you hate. Talking for hours on end, both of life and it's ridiculous nature, there was no off time between you both. It felt good.
The quiet moment after you left his room for your own, a faltering feeling of sadness and loneliness enters Spike. The urge to grab you and bring you back to his bed for the night was strong. He tried to get you to stay (always subtly), but to no avail. Well aware of your need for space, he always respected your decision.
The crank that was once rusty, was in Spike's head as his mind ran endlessly of if you liked him or not. It was a thought, a discussion he wanted to put off for so long. The consequences of his doubt were going to hurt, especially when it was going to be that time to go. The reassurance that this was only a fling, a friends with benefits deal, was on its way to be tossed out of the trash chute into space.
"Trust me, Spiegel, I've had plenty of time as a child to know what I'm talking about." You said as Spike passed you his cigarette.
"About what?" He asked, completely clueless.
"Rocks. Crystals, geodes. Have you not been listening?" You scolded, scoffing as Spike shook his head.
"The library in the city gave the orphanage books they didn't want anymore. My favorite book was the one about rocks on Mars, of course it was simplified for my small brain..."
Head in his hand, Spike listened as you rambled mindlessly of all the different rock formations on Mars. As much as he wanted to learn, he couldn't help but be distracted by his acknowledgment of your presence. More specifically, the air you brought in the room. Spike began to think of it as his favorite perfume, sweet and sultry, with a hint of spice. It made him feel safe.
You were so attractive when you were educating him. He hated to hear it from Jet or anyone else, but you made it interesting.
"You're pretty hot."
"Huh? Oh, yeah thanks. Anyways, like I was saying..."You replied, flattered by his sudden proclamation.
"I'm serious. You're talking all smart to me, and I can't help but tell you that." Spike smirked. "I think I learned more from you than in high school."
You laughed softly. "I tell you because I know you're dumber than a bag of hammers."
"Is that so?" Spike raised his eyebrows. Why was your teasing making him feel even better? "You're going to regret saying that."
"I only have one, and not that." You smiled slyly, the glint in Spike's eye becoming more noticeable.
"I'm about to make it two."
"I would love to see you try."
You put your hands up to defend yourself, Spike's smooth moves rendering you helpless. In a second, he had your arms pinned down by your sides, a deep throated chuckle emitting from him as he watched you struggle. There was no danger but that of falling to his charm and whim.
"I don't regret this." You panted.
"Sounds like the best decision I've made." Spike mumbled, gaze traveling all over your face. He brushes the stray hairs from your face, fingers tracing your hairline and ears. He was so close, you could feel his breath on your neck, threatening to brush his lips on yours.
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Life is but a Dream (Spike Spiegel x Reader)
FanfictionYou're just a lone bounty hunter trying to make her way through the solar system, living from one bounty to another. Life is slow, a bit peaceful, but you're in need of a really good paycheck. One night, you see a bounty so big, you think its a dr...