First Love

Chapter 02

Chapter 02

"Argh! She's so annoying!" and then she punched the water, imagining it was her.

It was around 1:00 when she arrived, we really had nothing to do so she suggested that she wants to swim. We have an exclusive pool on the third floor of our house so there's nothing to worry about when it's the rainy season. It's just a small jacuzzi with led lights below. I looked at Mizuki who's looking like a flower right now because of the swimsuit floral design.

I let her borrow my girly two piece swimsuit that was given to me by my cousin who's now in the US that I haven't worn since it was given to me because it was too girly.

I hate girly things, it's cringing me out.

I flipped the barbeque that Mizuki bought earlier. We have a portable grilling stove here so it is not a problem even though we have no outlet in this area.

"Is it done?" She asked.

I snapped.

"I..." We looked at each other and she laughed. She knows I don't do this kind of stuff, so I clearly don't know if it was cooked or not.

"Let me taste it," She put herself out of the water and bit one of the barbeques. "Hmm! It's cooked na!..." And then she tasted it again. "... I guess?"

I bit one of them. My face turns sour when I taste it. "It's fucking horrible, Mizuki!"

"It's fine!"

I think she just saying that because Im the one who cooked when it clearly taste like a fucking smoke!

I called Ate Nira to make the barbeque taste better, she chuckled when she tasted my barbeque and she said that it's over cooked.

Damn, I will take cooking lessons na.

After we swam, we decided to do our skill books so I prepared our things on the balcony of my room, where I was studying before. I really love studying there.

"Here's your snack, girls! Galingan niyo d'yan!" Ate Nina cheered. We laughed and said our thank you's before starting studying. We help each other in the parts that we didn't get. That's why we quickly finished the things we needed to do.

I am silently and attentively listening to her rants about this girl that is always texting her randomly at any time of the day. Not to mention that she is our batchmate. Her name is Mia, she's one of the careless students in our batch, she likes teasing people so I clearly understand why Mizuki finds her annoying.

She's in the middle of ranting when she looked shocked at the road behind us. It made her mouth open, looking like she saw a freaking ghost. Sometimes, she's just so exage.

I looked at it and I saw the curly guy- or should say Drei riding his bike again. He didn't see us because he's focused on the road. I wrinkled my brow because of confusion.

"Why, Mizuki?"

She looked at me. "Nothing... I just saw someone I knew," She said and it wrinkled my brows more. Why did she know Andrei?

"Really?" I asked using a lower voice.

"Yeah... I thought he's in Manila, that's why I was shocked to see him..." She looked at me, trying to find something in my eyes but quickly resumed our topic about this Mia girl. I can smell something fishy here.

Dinner came and I'm shocked to see that Mom and Dad were home. Mizuki greeted her, before they kissed my cheeks. Mom and I still haven't talked since the grades thingy. I want to apologize but I know it doesn't help.

And why would I apologize for something I knew I did my best?

My Dad sometimes steals a glance at me and Mom. I know he can feel the tension between us. And sometimes he will just look at me apologetically, like he felt bad for something I didn't know. Sometimes I think that he's hiding something from me.

Mizuki didn't notice the tension because she was clearly so talkative to my Mom, I don't even know what she's talking about because my attention is on my Mom who is very cold to me. Our parents are business allies and that's one of the reasons why I met Mizuki back when I was young and also, that's why she's close to my parents too.

Mizuki waved at me when her driver came to pick her up after dinner. She said she wants to do a sleepover but she has to do something tomorrow.

I glanced at my digital clock and it was already 1:26. I sighed. I am lying down for two hours and still I can't sleep. I decided to go down to drink some milk to help me get into sleep.

I was midway to the stairs when I heard that they were arguing at their office. I accidentally heard what they were arguing as I felt myself stop functioning as I heard them throwing words at each other.

"Your daughter is completely a failure to our family! How can I accept that, Simon?! Huh?!"

Your daughter...

"Don't call our daughter a failure, Maria! Because she will never be!"

"She's not my daughter! She is the daughter of your fucking mistress! I will never consider her as my child!"

I can feel my Dad stiffened and so I am.

My tears started to fall down to my cheeks. I can feel the sting in my chest and it feels like I've been stabbed a hundred times in where it stung.I heard the door open. I want to walk away... I want to breathe... I don't want them to see me like this... but my feet felt like that It was stuck in my position.

Gusto kong isigaw lahat ng saloobin ko. Lahat ng sakit sa likod ng peke kong ngiti tuwing nand'yan sila. Gusto kong isumbat lahat ng gabi na umiyak ako dahil pakiramdam ko hindi ako sapat na anak sa kanila kahit hindi na ako natutulog para lang makapag-aral. Gusto kong magwala at basagin lahat ng muwebles dito sa bahay.

Pero hindi gumalaw ang katawan ko.

I looked at Mom as my vision got blurry because of my tears flowing on the side of my eyes. I saw her looking at me with guilt as Dad got out of the office, ready to lash out but stiffened when he saw me.

Mom is right. I am a failure.

Bunga ng pagkakamali.

I remember the days when she always said I am a failure when I failed in class. I can clearly remember when she said that she hoped I was never born, that she hoped that I was not her daughter.

Maybe, this is what she meant.

I hate how I understand how she felt.

I hate how I think that I deserve all of this.

When in the first place...

Dad is the one who made the failure.