Chapter 11
I sipped my tea.
Waiting for Mizuki to ask me a ton of questions.
Cuz I saw that coming already.
And guess what?
Of course, I'm right.
"What happened and I'm the one you invited to come over and not your i-don't-know-his-fucking-name-crush?"
I rolled my eyes and stared at my presentation that I just finished designing. Dalawang araw na ang nakalipas simula nung pumunta ako sa bahay nila Andrei. He texted me good morning earlier but I didn't text back. I don't know what's fucking wrong with me. I'm just not in the mood to deal with people and I don't know why and it guilts me because I know I'm being unfair to him.
"Nothing."
"Are you hiding it from me? Babe! I know you so well, stop denying it!" she laughed and I promise I'm in the urge to fend her off in our house. "So, who is this lucky girl?"
"Fuck off."
"Oh my God! Never in my life did I imagine you in this state!"
"Stop, Mizuki. I'm not jealous if that's what you're thinking." oh yeah, Kirsten. Deny it! You're better than that, you prideful bitch.
"Oh! How cold!"
Hindi ko siya pinansin pero hindi talaga siya tumitigil kaya nag kwento na ako sa kaniya at naisip kong baka sakali din na kapag nailabas ko na sa kaniya ay mawala din itong nararamdaman ko dahil sa totoo lang, sobrang naging unproductive ko after that. I just lay in bed as soon as I got inside my room that night and just stared at the ceiling until I fell asleep.
"What do you... think?" I asked.
"Well as expected. It's totally obvious, Kirs! Just admit it because there's nothing really wrong with it," she rolled her eyes. "You are a human, of course you will like someone! And that's totally normal!"
I sighed. "I said, I didn't like him."
"Okay, keep denying. But I just want to inform you that the more you try to stop that, the more it will grow." sabi niya na parang may iba pang kahulugan.
It bothers me the whole day. Kahit noong nakaalis na si Mizuki at nagpapasalamat naman ako na mukhang naiintindihan niya na hindi niya ako makausap ng maayos dahil iniisip ko kung gusto ko nga ba si Andrei. And I figured out that if I indeed like him... isn't too fast? Like, I just met him months ago... but I read somewhere that it only takes 4 minutes to fall in love.
Wait.
Love?
No, this isn't love right?
It's powerful!
His last text to me was earlier and after that he didn't text me again but here I am looking at my phone every damn minute. I stared at his last texts.
Andrei: good morning!
Andrei: good evening, kirsten! kumain ka na?
Andrei: hi! good morning!
The first two texts were sent the next day after I ate at their house and the last is his text earlier. I sighed. I'm being so petty and unfair to him, I should at least apologize but I can't bring myself to type until... I fell asleep again.
Kinabukasan ay maaga akong gumising dahil may class ako ng 8 am. I was actually a little bit late, that's why I just ate my cereal while the class was ongoing. It was 2 pm when I finished all the things I needed to do for today, it's kinda hard to focus because I'm still thinking until now what I need to do with Andrei.
I went down to eat my late lunch. I caught Ate Nina and Ate Nira cleaning the countertop. I greeted them.
"Kain ka na, bunso?" I smiled and nodded. "Oh sige, sandali lang at paghahain lang kita," tumango ako kahit gusto kong tumulong pero dahil ocupado ang isip ay umupo na lang sa hapag.
I groaned and hit my head on the table.
"Why is this so hard..." I whispered.
"Oh, ano problema ng baby namin?" I just groaned, embarrassed that I'm preoccupied because of this matter.
Hindi ako katulad iba. Hindi ako katulad ng mga kasing edad ko na ang pakikipagrelasyon na agad ang iniisip. To be honest, that phase never crossed my mind all these years because I've been busy being a good daughter all my life and that's the only one that matters to me. Well, before.
But, Mizuki was right. It's normal to like someone and maybe I like... Andrei.
But, I will never admit to anyone of course!
Especially Andrei!
God, just thinking of it makes my cheeks boil. Nagulat ako ng kinaliti ako ni Ate Nina. "May crush ka na ba, Kirsten?! Bakit namumula iyang pisngi mo?"
I looked at Ate Nira to ask for help but she looks like she's gonna tease me too. I groaned.
"Sino 'yan ah? Si Andrei ba?"
"Ate naman..."
They laughed. "Boto kami do'n, Kirsten. Ang bait kaya ng bata na 'yon." Ate Nira.
"Oo naman! kahit nga si Ma'am, boto do'n e!"
Ngumuso ako.
"Bakit, nag-away ba kayo? o baka naman..." she wiggled her brows. "... may ahas na umepal kaya ganiyan ang reaksyon mo!" my eyes widened because of Ate Nina's choice of words. Ate Nira walks at us and hits Ate Nina's arm.
"Tinuturuan mo pa ng mali 'yung bata,"
I kinda felt guilty for Deahn. She's doing nothing wrong. I can't blame him for admiring Andrei because l know the feeling too. And... she didn't even know me but here I am... jealous of her. Speaking of guilt, I'm guilty for Andrei too because of my actions these past days. This isn't right, I have to say sorry.
I stand up.
"I have something to do, Ate Nina and Ate Nira. I gotta go..." I looked at Ate Nira's holding, it's my lunch. Oh God, I haven't eaten lunch yet but my guilt is really bothering me. "I will eat that later na lang po, Ate. I'm sorry..."
"Uy, okay lang, ano ka ba naman. Iinit ko na lang mamaya kapag kakain ka na, okay?" She smiled and I say thanks before going to their house.
I hugged myself when the air met my skin. It's a few days before Christmas and that explains why the wind is so cold and I love that plus! tomorrow is our last day!
I feel like I just won a 1 million lottery!
I just thought.
My feet automatically stop when I caught them laughing at their gate and Andrei is holding something that the God knows what and I don't freaking what the fuck was that, not even interested. I was about to turn back when the rain started pouring and I saw how Andrei pulled Deahn inside their house, laughing.
E'di sila na masaya! I wish them all the best!
I aggressively pulled the hood in my hoodie to my head as if that would help because my hoodie is already wet. The rain poured more.
I glared at their gate.
I looked like a jealous ex-girlfriend here! Fuck!
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