First Love

Chapter 12

Chapter 12

Me: good afternoon, andrei. i sincerely apologize for not texting back, im just not feeling well this past few days, i hope you understand. thank you.

"Fuck, it looks like I'm submitting an apology letter."

I groaned and clicked sent. Humiga ako sa aking higaan, basa ang buhok. Ilang minuto pa akong nakatayo doon kanina habnag masamang tinitingnan ang gate nila. Lalong lumakas ang ulan kaya kahit basang basa na ay ipinag-kibit balikat na lang. Naiinis pa rin ako dahil ako na nga ang pumunta, ganoon pa ang nadatnan ko pero sa kabilang banda ay naiintindihan ko naman dahil ako naman talaga ang may kasalanan.

"So, that's the reason why he couldn't text me, huh?" I rolled my eyes. Mukha na akong tanga dito dahil kanina ko pa kinakausap ang sarili ko. Hindi na ako kumain dahil hindi naman nararamdaman ang gutom, nagpalit lang ako ng damit.

I really want to open this to Zuki just to let out my frustrations but my eyes are telling me otherwise so I slept. I opened my eyes with a severe headache. I tightly closed my eyes when I remembered that I'm the type of person who easily gets sick.

I touched my head.

"What do I expect?" I whispered.

Tumayo ako kahit tumitibok tibok ang ulo ko. I can feel my stomach growling like a dragon because I didn't eat my lunch earlier. I went down to see that everyone was asleep. I looked at Ate Nina's sticky note at the ref.

Hindi ko alam kung magigising ka pa bebe, pero ung pagkain mo nasa lamesa oki? kapag malamig na, initin mo na lang! labyu

- Ate Nina na maganda

I chuckled and took the food on the table and put it in the microwave.

Habang hinihintay matapos ang timer, sinubukan kong maghanap ng gamot sa drawer. Nang may nakita, kumuha ako ng isa. Tumingin ako sa timer at hindi pa rin tapos kaya nagtimpla muna ako ng gatas. Kinuha ko ang pagkain at dinala ang mga iyon sa balkonahe ng kwarto ko. Malamig ang hangin kaya nagdala pa ako ng kumot at tinalukbong sa sarili.

"Damn, it's so cold,"

You dumbass, of course you have a fever!

I sip in my hot milk. Napapikit ako ng gumuhit ito sa aking lalamunan. Kahit medyo bumabaliktad ang sikmura ay sinubukan ko pa rin na kumain para makainom ng gamot. I was midway at eating a spoonful of rice when I remembered what happened earlier. I glanced at my phone, expecting a text but there's no notifications.

Ano? Hanggang ngayon magkasama sila?

"Argh! Can you just shut your mind, Kirsten?!" I exclaimed and aggressively pulled my hair which made my head hurt even more. Sumandal ako sa aking upuan at inayos ang nakapalibot na kumot sa akin. Napatingin ako sa taas na wala man lang kahit isang bituin.

The scene earlier flashed in my mind. I remember the girl. Even from a distance, I immediately knew that she's pretty. The height is probably 5'8 which I envy the most because I'm a damn 5'2! I frowned when I thought that they would be good as a couple.

I stood up, ready to sleep to end this thought that was getting through my system but I stopped when I saw him in front of our house staring at me.

"Oh please, not now..." that I'm still acting like a jealous girlfriend when I said that he's just a happy crush! I saw him pick up his phone using his left hand because his right hand is holding something that I don't know or maybe that is the thing that Deahn gave to him earlier!

I want to groan because of my thoughts but he's still staring at me so... I just stare at him too. I jumped a little when my phone rang.

I answered it.

"Are you okay?"

"Yes."

"Uhm, are you sick?" He looks at me like he is gathering his thoughts. "Can you come down for a minute?" He asked. I want to say no because I don't know how to act in front of him now that my thoughts are a mess but that would be rude and I hate to admit it but...

I want to see him... closer...

"I'm not but okay,"

"Huh?"

"I will come down,"

"Oh," I saw him smile under the yellow of the poster lights. "Okay, I'll wait," he noted. I end the call and run downstairs even though my head is throbbing.

God! The things I do!

I opened the gate and stared at him. I really don't want to talk as much as possible because I'm afraid that I will just put myself in danger. I sometimes can't control what I say when I'm... like this, dealing with some shits. Oh, that kinda rhyme.

Really, Kirsten?

"You look pale... are you alright?"

No! Of course not! My head is aching and I feel like shit too!

"Yes." I said in a very rehearsed tone. But of course, I will never admit that, never in my life. But my eyes widened when he touched my forehead so I accidentally hit his hand but I can't see his reaction because my head is facing the ground. "I-i'm sorry! I'm fine don't worry about me,"

I heard him sighed and he picked something in the paper bag. My head immediately exploded because of frustration! What? Will he give me some of the things that Deahn gave to him?! No way!

He opened a cool fever patch and he just popped it to my forehead!

"What the?" I scoffed. "You will really give me the thing that she gives you, huh?!" I glared at his confused eyes. I will never be fooled by those eyes again!

I aggressively removed the fever patch out of my head.

"What are you talking about?"

"E, hindi ba iyan 'yung paper bag na binigay sa'yo ni Deahn kanina, tapos ibibigay mo sa akin?" I stated but I immediately regretted it when he bit his lip to stifle a smile.

Fuck, am I wrong?

Gosh! Sabi ko sa'yo huwag ka ng magsasalita, Kirsten!

He faked a cough. "So, kaya ka nilalagnat?" he chortled and took the patch out of my hand and put it again in my forehead but now, gently. "Ako ang bumili nito kasi sabi mo sa text na hindi maganda pakiramdam mo. At 'yung binigay naman niya nasa ref... pwede naman kita bigyan kung gusto mo..."

"No, thanks."

He chortled. "I'm sorry late ko na nabasa 'yung text."

"It's fine."

"At kung pupunta ka sa amin, sasabihin mo ha? Huwag iyong nagpapaulan-"

"Paano ko sasabihin may kasama ka-"

Stop there.

Stop there, Kirsten!

"Cute mo," He said and with that my cheeks blushed profusely.

I didn't believe it when they say that they feel butterflies in their tummies.

But that's exactly what I'm feeling right now.

I hate it but at the same time I love this feeling.