Reckless

Chapter 15

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Everything was the same; my heart beats erratically whenever Blake and I touch skin. But other than him sneering at me or vice-versa plus the small talks or the one word replies, we never really had a ‘nice conversation’ after years of being apart.  Yes, that hurts a bit because we used to be fond of each other but now we can’t even stand each other. I can’t even look him in the eyes for a good minute.

Tuwing titignan ko siya sa mata, ang naaalala ko lang lagi yung pag ngisi niya sa’kin while his arm was draped over some bimbo’s shoulder while they were entering his room and to do for God knows what.

Sabi nga nila, change was the only constant in this world.

I guess I will never look at him the same way.

Anyhow, let’s talk about the good side ng pag-balik ko dito sa Cali. Miss na miss na ko ni Roland. Walang araw na lumipas na hindi kami nag uusap sa phone or Skype. Even in his busy schedule my boyfriend still calls me or answers my call. Sometimes, it scares me that their band’s going to be famous as fast as it is supposed to be. Ngayon pa nga lang na bago palang sila madami na mga fans at fans club nila. They are all good looking guys, great musicians, performers… plus they got my dbag of a boyfriend who’s extremely a good package to be their front man.

Nag-aalala ko baka pag sumikat na sila mas madaming mabaliw sa boyfriend ko, mas madami akong makakakumpetensya, and it fcking scares me that one day he’ll realize that I am not good enough for him anymore. Saka natatakot din ako kapag sikat na sikat na sila we won’t be able to have our ‘alone time’ as much as I want to. Hindi sa ayaw kong maging successful yung banda nila pero … I was just not yet ready for the change.

I know that’s selfish but what can I do.. I’m selfish. Self-centered btch.