Reckless

Chapter 25

Sorry sa napakatagal na update, sobrang tindi nung writer's block ko tapos nagkaproblema pa sa desktop. Hindi kasi ko sanay mag update using iPad or phone, mas lumalabas ideas kapag desktop e. Ayoko naman mag update basta masabing nag update lang. :)

Kaya eto imbis na Saturday, Sunday ko na napost. Pasensya na sa mga naghintay. Hindi to masyadong mahaba Tas kasunod na chapter ending na. Lol char, kasunod na chapter within this week lang din.

Dedicated this to @jasannebisyosa :)

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- iamhilarious

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Chapter 25: "Getting someone pregnant doesn't make you a dad. Dropping in for a 5 minute visit a handful times a year doesn't make you a dad. Telling people you have a kid doesn't make you a dad. Getting a tattoo of the child's name doesn't make you a dad. Just because you have a child biologically doesn't make you a dad. And don't yo dare think for one minute that you have any say in who gets to be in the child's life, when you yourself play no part in their life."

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Recap from Chapter 24

"And why the hell did you think I was going to reject them?"

This time I smirked, "Nakalimutan mo na ba yung sinabi mo sa'kin that fateful night of our break up? You said proudly to everyone that you're not gonna let yourself to make me your wife and to be the mother of your children kasi ako yung babaeng hindi matino. Ako yung babaeng pumayag na maging fuck buddy mo muna bago mo ginawang girlfriend!"

It tasted bitter in my own tongue. As soon as the words came out of my mouth, guilt flooded his face.

"And the main reason why you became a heartless a$$hole that night was because you thought I was pregnant. Dahil nakita mo yung mga test kits ni Maine na sa bahay niya tinago nung nagpanic siya! You're so used to fûcked up girls that's why you cannot recognize a real one. You never trusted me." I said and as I shook my head.

Nakatingin lang siya sa'kin na para bang nagrereplay sa utak niya lahat ng mga sinasabi ko.

"Sa tingin mo ba ganon ako katanga para lumapit sayo at sabihin na buntis ako three weeks later matapos mo kong akusahan na nabuntis ng iba? Kung sinabi ko sayo, maniniwala ka ba?!"

Umiwas siya ng tingin at hindi nakapag salita na para bang umurong ang dila niya.

"Diba hindi? You're just gonna reject me over again at ipagpipilitan na kay Blake ang mga batang dinadala ko." By this time hinihingal na ko sa pagsigaw at pag iyak, pero I need this to get out of my chest.

"Buti nalang may pride at utak akong natira sa katawan ko para di gawin yon. Dahil kung ginawa ko yun, I could have lost them dahil sa stress at depression na pwede mong ibigay."
Sabi ko as the last tear fell.

"Kaya wag na wag mong sasabihin na selfish pa rin ako. Na ako pa rin yung Andrea na nakilala mo noon. Because I'm too far from being that stupid college girl who fell for you."

"Hindi na ako yon, Roland. Now please get out." Sabi ko saka ako tumalikod. Kumapit ako sa desk dahil pakiramdam ko tutumba ko anytime dahil sa galit at panlalambot ng tuhod.

Akala ko umalis na siya pero naramdaman kong lumapit siya sakin at hinawakan ako sa balikat. Nagulat ako sa ginawa niya, pakiramdam ko para kong napaso sa hawak niya.