The IMPERFECTLY Perfect

chapter 7

Shiva's pov

My hands shivered as I opened the diary..
The words from her first diary were continuosly running in my hand..
I was scared as to what will I be encountering this time what it will be..
Will I still be the villain of the story or will I be just a person she was bounded to..

What ever it was I have to find out and for that I need to read this diary..
Taking a very deep breath , I turned the first page..

There was a picture of a devil and a angle while shiva was written below the devil , raavi was written below the angle.. Along with a new start..

I smiled as I saw that. And remembered how even in her previous diary the front page had me as a devil.. But there her name was inked with dev where as there was no trace of dev in this one..  This was truly a new start for her without dev..

As I turned further I started reading it..

Dear diary
Sahi kaha ha kisi ne kabhi kabhi hamari life main aise incidents hote ha ki hum khud nhi samajh pate ki sahi kya ha galat kya ha..

Pichle 2 din main meri life puri badal si gai ha.. Mere best friend ne mujhe dhokha de diya , mera rishta tut gaya , maine suicide attempt kiya , meri Dhara di ne mujhe dhokha de diya aur meri shaadi shiva se ho gai..
Haa Shiva wahi shiva jisne mujhse dushmani nikalne main phd ki ha. Jo mujhse itni nafrat krta ha ki mujhe gundo ke pass akela chod ke aa gaya tha ,
Ye jante hue bhi ki wo janardhan seth ke gunde the aur wo hume mar bhi skte the wo mujhe akele chod ke aa gaya. Kyu.. Itni nafrat krta ha wo mujhse..

Pta ha meri saasein atak gai thi jb maine usse mujhe chod ke jate hue dekha tha toh..  Agar baaki log waha nhi aai hue hote toh wo mujhe chod deta marne ke liye..
Agar itni nafrat krta ha toh kyu shaadi wali din meri jaan bachai.. Kyu..
Kyu dhara di ne meri shaadi usse krwai kyu. 2 din main meri saari duniya hi badal gai ha kyu..
Kyu shiva ne mujhe waha chod diya tha..
Sb mujhe chod kyu dete ha.. .mujhe laga tha ki meri aur shiva ki kitni bhi ladai kyu na ho jai wo meri care krta ha insaniyat ke naate hi pr I was wrong.. He hates me so I hate you too Shiva.. I hate you to..
Bht hurt kiya ha tune aaj mujhe bht zyada..

My eyes teared as I complete reading the page..
I was so angry that day because she misunderstood me , but I never realised what she would have felt in that moment..
I did told her the trust that day in khandar because I didn't wanted her to loose her life just because she has misunderstood me.
If the khandar incident wouldn't have happened I am sure I wouldn't have told the truth ever..

I flipped the page and continued reading

Day 2

Kal hum sb haveli aai , kuldevi ki puja ke liye.. Raste main bht kuch hua , mera aur shiva ka jhagra , shiva aur dev ka jhagra.. Phir rishita ki tabiyat kharab ho gai thi..

Pata ha maine apne gusse main dhara di ke saath galat kr rhi thi.. Usne badtameezi kr rhi thi taki unko bhi wo hurt feel ho jo unhone mujhe karwaya tha pr phir shiva ne mujhe samjhaya ki main galat hu..
Although main uski baat nhi manana chathi thi pr wo galat nhi tha yaha..
Kabhi kabar sahi cheeze bhi bol deta ha..

Pr phir aisi harkat krta ha jaise kya bolo.. Kyu ha aisa ye.. Ek taraf mujhse ladne ke bahane dhudhta ha aur dusri taraf aaj usne mujhe sindoor lagaya..
Mujhe bht weird laga , galat wala weird nhi , sahi wala.. Lekin uske baad phir hamara jhagra hua jb pandit ji ne hume haat pakad ke vachan lene ko kaha.. Mujhe achanak se yaad aa gaya ki kaise wo mujhe chod ke bhag gaya tha aur maine usse suna diya , aur wo gusse main waha se chala gaya.. I know maine galat kiya sbke samne usse nhi bolna chaiyea tha pr kya krti mujhe ye baat digest hi nhi ho rhi ha kai wo mujhe chod ke aa gaya tha , usne hamesha mujhe bachaya tha toh us din kyu bhag gaya..
Lekin phir jb dhara di ne thoda samjhaya toh main samjhi aur usse mana ke leke aai..phir humne saath main vachan liya..
Atleast maine toh liya uska mujhe nhi pata..