where the rain can't touch the ground

introduction

I looked through the cream-coloured dusty curtains, the sun was shining bright after several days of pouring rain, but I could still smell the familiar scent of wet cedarwood and aged musk from the ground. My nostrils joyed at that so comforting odor, and reminded me how much I hated sunny days. As daft as it was, I considered them boring and basic and lame. I was more of a melancholic type of person, not meaning I liked being sad, but meaning I found peace in unusual and gloomy things. Since always. Cloudless days were way too discounted.

It was time for me to have breakfast and get ready for a new exciting adventure, which consisted in looking after Hazel and Johnathan, my sweet little creatures. I had already bought their favourite snacks and filled two cups with bergamot flavoured tea, knowing they wouldn't let their mum feed them until they eventually would've got here.

I sat on the sofa and sighed. I missed waking up and being actually chuffed to bits for the day. Everything felt so surreal, even the simplest things and I couldn't help getting caught up in it all. I fancied believing it was merely overthinking, but it wasn't. I didn't want to admit it to myself, thus I let billions of thoughts cross my mind, and firmly chose to ignore them, convincing myself it was just another monotonous, sunny day.

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"Are you sure you don't need anything? What about the kids?" I asked with concern, looking in my daughter's big and glassy eyes, whilst she reached one hand to my shoulder and patted it, a little smile coming across her lips.

"No worries, mum, really. I'm aware Alex may seem slightly distracted at times but the children will be good with him. And you can still visit them; his mother is going to help him anyway so you better relax and take some time for yourself."

I nodded, deciding to trust her words and turned my head to look at the two beautiful childrem who were silently watching tv and nibbling chocolate bars.

"What about you, though? Are you going to be okay here, all alone?" Scarlett slowly released her palm from my shoulder, letting it run down my arm and waited anxiously for my response, which was by the way going to be the same as years before.

"Oh darling, I've lived on my own for a long time now. What makes you even think that I'm not going to be okay?" I reassured her and felt my eyes burn due to the easiness I had faked in responding like that. But it was fine.

"I......I just know it's not a walk in the park. You know you can always call me whenever you feel like talking."

The calm tone of her voice perfectly fitted her rosy and full lips, her angelic face reminded me how grateful I was for having her.

"Thank you, honey." No words could effectively describe my gratitude in that moment.

She smiled at me and tilted her head to the kids.

"Come on, guys. Time to greet nana." 

! hello my dear readers, this is my first time publishing and i'm already pretty nervous. I'm not sure this introduction will make you fully perceive what's going on; i wrote a few information in the descrption since i don't want to spoil anything. If you're interested in this story vote vote vote! I'll try to publish new chapters twice a week, in the meantime, make sure you add this to your library so that you won't miss the upcoming ones!

sending love xx

-rae