Loved By You

Nine

Demi

I wanted to try and get my body back to the way it was before I had Hunter, or at least a little closer to the way it used to be. I called Jordan who instantly offered to come to the gym with me. Odell was heavy in a workout as we stepped into the gym so he didn't see me at first. I took a seat opposite Jordan on the mat, beginning to stretch.

"How do you want to start?"

"I-Easy. I haven't done any exercise since I was like 20 weeks" she nodded as she grabbed some weights from the rack. My eyes instantly danced over to Odell, my eyebrows scrunching at the girl stood beside him, wearing shorts and a sports bra. She was stick thin and looked gorgeous. I glanced down at myself, tugging at the shirt I only felt comfortable in. There's no way I'd step into the gym wearing just a sports bra and leggings anymore.

"What you looking at?" I shook my head as I glanced up at Jordan. She sighed as she glanced over to Odell. "He wouldn't cheat on you, Demi" I nibbled on my lip as I glanced back over my shoulder. "Don't even say that isn't what you're thinking because I know it is" I rolled my eyes. "He loves you, Honey."

"But she's slim and gorgeous and I'm..." I glanced down at myself. "Fat and..." Jordan cut me off.

"Gorgeous?" I rolled my eyes as I shook my head. "Demi, you have absolutely no reason to be insecure. You're beautiful."

"Then, why don't I feel it?" she stared at me for a moment until arms wormed their way around my waist and I jumped.

"No need to jump, Baby, it's just me" Jordan flashed me a light smile as Odell pressed a kiss to my cheek. "Why didn't you say you were coming to the gym?"

"It-It was a last minute thing" Jordan raised her eyebrows.

"Why are you wearing this?" he questioned as he played with the bottom of my shirt. I wrapped my hand around his wrist to stop him from tugging it up my body. "Dem?"

"I-I feel comfortable in it. Why does it matter?" I managed to free myself from his grip, my stomach suddenly filling with guilt as his eyes filled with a confused sadness.

"Okay, Baby. I was just asking" I nibbled on my lip as I glanced over at the girl who was stood on the other side of the gym, glancing over at Odell every so often. I glanced down at the floor as our eyes met and her lips twitched slightly at the corners. "Demi, you're really worrying me. What's wrong?"

"I'm fat, Odell" his eyes slightly rolled as he shook his head.

"You're not fat, Demi."

"I am compared to her" his eyebrows scrunched together slightly until he suddenly realised what I meant.

"Demi" he sighed like he was slightly annoyed.

"I am. I'm not some stick-thin model who would love to get her claws in you. It's obvious she wants you, Odell."

"And what? You think that I want her?" I remained quiet which just seemed to heighten his annoyance. "Do you even trust me at all, Demi?" I wanted to say that I did but the words wouldn't leave my mouth. "Great. My own fiancé doesn't trust me. What's the point in even being with me, Demi?" my heart was pounding against my chest as I tried to force myself to speak. "After everything we've been through over the last week with Hunter, I wouldn't have thought you didn't trust me. I might see you when I get home or maybe I'll go and spend the night somewhere else" the little dig made my heart ache. I felt sick to my stomach as I watched him walk away, tears burning at the backs of my eyes. I eventually glanced over at Jordan who was staring at me with a 'what the fuck did you just do?' face.

"Can we just go?" she flashed me a light smile as she grabbed our stuff and we moved to leave the gym. I took one last glance at Odell who was beating the shit out of the punch bag. I can only imagine he's thinking of my face.

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"Goodnight, Handsome" I lightly caressed the side of Kalen's head as he rolled onto his side and clutched his teddy into his chest. "I love you" I stared down at him for a moment before I moved to leave the nursery. I pulled the door to a close behind me, leaving the nightlight on. I made my way downstairs, stopping as I stepped off the bottom step as the front door was pushed open. My heart skipped a beat as Odell's eyes met mine. "Hi" he shook his head and my heart dropped into my stomach as he walked passed me. I swallowed over the lump that formed in my throat, trying to hold back my tears as I followed behind him. I watched him, holding my breath, fearful to make a single sound. He grabbed a glass and filled it with water before he turned and headed into the living room. I wiped away the single teardrop that rolled down my cheek as I followed behind him once again. "Can..." the sound of my own voice made me jump but I forced myself to continue. "Can you please stop giving me the silent treatment now?" he released a sigh as he lowered his glass onto the table and he reached for the tv remote. I walked to sit on the couch beside him, grabbing the remote from his hand before he could switch it on. "I do trust you" he relaxed back against the couch, keeping his eyes on the blank tv. "I just-It isn't anything to do with you. I just don't like myself at the minute. I-I'm no longer that confident girl you met. I-I don't feel like myself anymore" I stared down at my hands as I twiddled with my fingers, tears pouring down my cheeks. "I look in the mirror and I see somebody I don't know. I don't want to lose you, Odell, please?" I glanced up at him as I sniffled, my heart breaking in my chest as I choked on a sob, fearful that I was slowly losing everything because of my own insecurities.

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Adding a little drama 😜