Loved By You

Twenty Three

Odell

I wished more than anything that I could run after Demi but I can't even move around in bed without pain. I relaxed back against the pillows, groaning out in frustration as I tried to get comfortable. I didn't force my eyes open again until the door was pushed open and my mom stepped in with a light smile.

"Hi Honey."

"Hi" the side of my face ached as I forced my lips into a small smile. She lowered herself down into the chair that Demi was just sat in, her hand instantly wrapping around mine.

"How are you feeling?" I released a sigh as I relaxed back against the bed unable to think of anything other than Demi.

"I broke my leg in 3 places which means I'll be a burden on everyone for the next couple months" mom's entire face filled with sympathy. "I have a couple broken ribs which is making it a little difficult to breathe, my heads pounding and I don't know how to get Demi to believe that I still love her" mom's grip tightened briefly around my hand. I glanced to meet her gaze.

"So, you do still love her?"

"Of course I do, Mom. Just because she didn't believe me, it doesn't mean that I don't love her" I rolled my eyes as I spoke. "I planned to keep fighting for her until she came back but then I just turned into this major ass who continued to hurt her. I was frustrated that she didn't believe me and..."

"She doesn't think she deserves you anymore."

"That's a load of shit."

"I know that and you know that, but she doesn't, Odell. She's really scared that she's pushed you away for good. She's really fragile at the minute and I don't know what's going on but..." she cut herself off. I released a sigh as I glanced over at her.

"Do you think you could convince her to come back?"

"Even if I have to force her" I lightly laughed as I rolled my eyes. "I'm glad you're okay" she leant in to gently kiss my cheek. I tried to relax back against the bed and I must have ended up falling to sleep because I jumped awake at the sound of the door closing. I glanced to Demi who stood by the door, her teeth biting into her lower lip as she played with her fingers.

"I want you to come sit and I want you to let me talk" her eyes ever so slightly widened. She pushed herself away from the door and slowly slid into the chair by my bed. "If anyone doesn't deserve anyone, it's me" her eyes burnt into mine, her usual sparkle was definitely missing. "Demi, you have changed my life so much. I know I was an ass to you..."

"I deserved it" she mumbled as she glanced back down at her hands. I shook my head and then spoke.

"No, you didn't" her tongue ran along her lips. "You thought I cheated, everyone did. It was basically spread around the world. You did what anyone would have done, Demi. I-I probably would have done the same" her tear filled eyes broke my heart. "Demi, I-I still love you, and that's never going to change. You are it for me. You're my forever, I don't want anyone else and if I have to gain your trust back, I will. I will try every damn day until you trust me again. I just want you back, Baby, I want my family back" she glanced down briefly as a tear rolled down her cheek. I watched as she sniffled and then her head dropped into her hands. Her sobs ripped through me. "Demi. Baby, please stop crying" I reached out and managed to run my hand along her shoulder.

"I-I'm sorry" she choked on a sob as she glanced up at me, tears still flowing down her cheeks. "I just-I should have believed you in-in the first place and-and I was a shit fiancée be-because I didn't. I'm the worst person..." I slowly began to shake my head.

"No, Baby. I don't blame you because I would have thought the same thing, anyone would have."

"But I-I left you. I just walked out on you..." she stopped herself and shook her head as she wiped at her cheeks. "K-Kalen's having nightmares because I left, isn't he?"

"Baby, we don't know that."

"I hate..."

"Don't you dare say that you hate yourself" her eyes burnt into mine. "This isn't your fault, Demi, you aren't to blame for any of this. I am, okay? I'm the person that caused all of this" she nibbled on her the lip as the tears continued to flow. "I'm not going to let you blame yourself for doing something that any heartbroken person would" I held my hand out. She stared down at it for a moment before gently sliding her fingers onto it. "I love you and I want you to come home" she silently stared at me for a moment. "You-You don't have to obviously, I-I just..."

"I want to come home" my lips twitched ever so lightly into a smile. "I-I haven't slept for 2 weeks. It isn't the same without you. I-I wanted you back everyday but I..." her tear filled eyes burnt into mine. "I didn't think you-you wanted me anymore" I gave her hand a squeeze, my heart broke. I was a major ass to her. "I really am sorry for everything."

"I don't want to hear another apology, Demi. None of this is your fault but I should be sorry too. I shouldn't have been the ass to you that I was" she nibbled on her lip. "Now, can I have a kiss?"

"I-I don't want to hurt you" I rolled my eyes in reply, tugging on her hand so she'd get the hint that I wasn't about to take no for an answer. She leant in and gently pecked my lips, even the light touch made my entire body ignite.

"A real kiss, Demetria" she lightly giggled as she wrapped her lips gently with mine. "You said you haven't slept, right?"

"Right?"

"Well, I'm tired so how would you like to cuddle? I've missed not sleeping with my arms around you."

"I really don't want to hurt you, Odell" I shook my head as I tugged her gently down onto the bed. Her eyes rolled as I managed to get her to lie down on the bed beside me. She hesitantly laid her head on my chest, my arm wrapping loosely around her as my fingertips traced along her hip.

"I love you" she nodded, her fingers tracing patterns on my chest.

"I love you too" the pain of her lying against my side was nothing compared to the happiness I felt to finally having her back.

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