Sometimes a hug doesn't mean love. Sometimes when someone decides to embrace you and say that they love you, what they mean is I need someone to grab ahold of and pretend to love so I can feel what normal is or at least so I can pretend to be what you all think normal is, let's put on a show for the humans around us we say!, (that's how most think) yet I've fallen for these creepy beings and their lies and schemes, I remember the tall skinny dark one and how he came into my room, he stood above me, blood on his face as he stared down on my sleeping body, I'm your killer he spoke then he disappeared as I jumped then awoke.
His voice rang in my ears, I stood to my feet, my ex boyfriends voice began to chant and ring while my vision grew fuzzy, I made my way into the hallway, I started to stumble and fall, my head began to pound as I started to fall suddenly plummeting to the ground as I heard words that he spoke from our past relationship, I felt nauseas as I made my way to the toilet, All men are that way he chuckled, it's impossible for you to find a man who is willing to be loyal to you, it's impossible, it's literally in my DNA, it's in my genetic makeup to fuck multiple counterparts and I am unable to stay loyal to one woman as a man, he laughed! Listen Savannah I don't know what Christian propaganda your parents have been feeding you but no man will ever be faithful to you he said right before taking a long drag of his ciggerate, it's impossible, now that doesn't mean we can't have a long lasting relationship but to think that I, a man will be faithful to you?, it's absurd and I am being honest with you this is how men are, we can't stay with one woman and be faithful to her forever I mean I'm designed to ejaculate until I'm at least freaking eighty and all that sperm can't possibly be all for you honey he laughed, no man will ever be faithful to you, they don't exist and if you think he's being faithful just know that he's not.
He took a long drag off of his ciggerate while we stood on his balcony, I stared at the ground just shaking my head in disappointment.
I was on my hands and knees while I threw up in the toilet of my current boyfriend house whom I've discovered earlier that evening had been cheating on me after all.
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Everyone Screams To Things Unseen
Non-FictionThe diary of a woman struggling to navigate clearly through life in 21st century America as the lines between the natural and spiritual world become blurred.
