Everyone Screams To Things Unseen

My abusive baby daddy with his "were all animals" bull shit rants!

  My heads throbbing! I just got my throat choked and my head banged up! I barricaded the door- its been 4 hours since the Drunk Meat sack thinking being came out of him and grasped his hands around my throat just for making a point in a discussion that would never amount to anything but me getting my ass kicked because I believed I was right! I just want him to go away! He's a nightmare! I can't take him anymore - he physically and mentally exhausts me! I'm always trying to prove to him that I'm not an animal and he's trying to prove to me that we are! I'm the one trying to hold onto Christ and his Grace is Sufficient for our short comings and he screams Gods a made up concept by bored scared humans! I hate The men! How can anyone love them? They all scream about how they are hunters by nature and it's in their blood to kill, they justify sinful nature with animalistic and evolutionary points of views? I'm just trying to protect my daughter from all that "nothing matters" shit even evil people yet how can I do that when those types drown me and I'm supposed to hold her up? How? I hate you Jesus! I basically stood up for you in discussion and got beat up for it!? I was drunk so was he yet my head hurts, my stomach is in nots and I'm afraid he's gonna kill me in my sleep or worse hurt my daughter but he wouldn't do that yet why the fuck did he choke me out like that and start beating up against my head?, I don't know what he's capable of!

You burned all your bridges the voice inside spoke, just stay quiet and with him, your parents don't like you nor can they handle you! Just shut up suck it up and keep your mouth shut! If you leave him the court will order that he gets visitation rights and he will take your daughter to his moms house where his step dad thrives, once she's there the animals who believe " nothing truly matters" will feast on her!
Just stay with him so you can keep an eye on her, he won't hurt her!

Please God provide a way of escape! I try to hold onto the good times even the love we share but I can't any longer I need an escape plan! I'm afraid of this man! He like many other "it" perceived beings scare me!