The Cry of Silence

4 - All The Voices

TW: bullying, ED, coarse language

- M A E V E -

Sleep came easy but staying asleep was a whole different story. My body ached and even the slightest movement brought immense pain. All I wanted to do was stay in my room and sleep off the throbbing headache and aching of my body. Knowing it would probably be more dangerous for me to stay in the house with Dad, I slowly climbed out of bed, wincing and clenching my fists in pain.

I looked into my mirror and looked at the unrecognisable girl staring back at me. I had a black eye and bruises all over my body. My breathing was shallow because it hurt so much. I gently run my fingers over my ribs and gasp at the excruciating pain it caused. I didn't look in the mirror much since I looked identical with Serenity and god, I hated the person who was staring back at me. 

A single tear slipped from my eye and rolled down my face. Taking a deep breath in I wince and instantly regret it. I brushed the tear off my cheek and start to cover the bruise around my eye as good as I can. It wasn't perfect but it would have to do.

I slipped on my usual outfit, long pants, long sleeved shirt, hoodie and today a beanie and silently open my door. I could hear Dad's loud snores from his room so I knew I could get away. I picked up my bag and walked out, pausing at the kitchen. I knew I had to eat but I just couldn't. The voices prevented me.

"Your fat"
"Ugly"
"Overweight"
"Lose some weight fatty"
"No wonder Mum and Serenity left you"
"This is why Dad doesn't love you"

"What's the point of eating if you are just going to throw it up later?" I thought to myself. The thoughts swirled around my already spinning head and I stumbled backwards and fell out of the front door.

Tears stung in my eyes and all I wanted was for the voices to shut up. The hateful voices which told me all of the bad things about me.

•••

The walk to school was quick despite my injuries. I hid out in the library while I waited for Leah to show up. I loved going to libraries. It was a perfect place to hide from everything and the silence was good for me headache. I was just finishing the homework which I hadn't done the night before when my phone buzzed.

Leah: Girl, where are you?
Maeve: I'm in the library
Leah: Ok well meet at the tree where we eat lunch, big things are happening today!
Maeve: Alright cya in 5

I sighed and shoved my homework in my bag before walking outside to meet Leah. The hallways were starting to fill up more with students and I had to stop myself from crying out as someone shoved me. I fell into the wall next to me and looked up to see who it was. Of course. Mia Hill and Charlotte Stone. The two bitches, uh I mean girls who made it their duty to bully me.

"Awe, did I hurt little Maeve?" Mia sneered.
I glared at her.

"Fuck off Mia, no one likes you" I spat back at her.
I didn't want to fight with the pounding in my head becoming unbearable but I was prepared to throw a punch if I needed to.

Mia's sneer turned into a glare and she shoved me back into the wall. I was not normally a violent person but Mia just manages to flick a switch inside of me and every time I see her, I want to punch her.

"Who the fuck do you think you are?" Mia growled, trying to get a reaction out of me.

"Mia, I think you ought to teach her a lesson" Charlotte snickered.

Mia smiled at this and before I knew it, she punched me straight in the face. My head smashed against the wall and I felt a trickle of something warm run down from my nose. Great a nose bleed. This pissed me off. I looked back at her with a glare that could kill and saw a flicker of fear in her eyes.

"You fucking bitch," I hissed at her.

"Ooh and what are you going to do about it fatty?" Charlotte teased.

Before she could react, I slapped her in the face and kicked Mia in the stomach. Mia fell back wheezing and Charlotte stood there in shock. By this time there was a growing crowd which would soon attract teachers.

I smiled sweetly at the both, "That's what I am going to about it." And with that I walked off, sticking my middle finger in the air for them to see.

"Dude what took so long?" Leah asked when I eventually sat down.

"Two words, Mia, Charlotte." I rubbed my head and sighed.

"Oh shit. I hate those bitches," Leah said angrily
"Do you need me to knock some sense into them?" She said, cracking her knuckles.

I chuckle, "Don't worry, I've already done that and either I pissed them off even more or they will leave me alone."

Leah smiled at this and then her smile dimmed and a worried look cast over her face. "What happened to your eye?"

Mia's punch must have rubbed off some of my makeup, showing the deep purple and black bruise which surrounded my eye. I subconsciously pulled my hood down lower.

"It's nothing, I just uh walked into a uh p-pole." Fuck, the stutter gave me away. Leah looked unconvinced.

"I'm fine, don't worry," I smile unconvincingly.
Leah narrowed her eyes but decided not to push the topic.

"Well anyway I was going to say that Kai comes back today but frankly I don't think he will be around much. He never seems to stay in school for long," She continued and I was glad that she didn't ask anything about the bruises.

Suddenly the bell rang out signalling that we have to go to class. Sighing we both got up and joined the mass of students going to homeroom.

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A/N
Hey guys! Sorry this took so long, I have been pretty busy with school but alas here is the part. I should be able to write more often now so hopefully parts will come out faster. Thank you all for the support, it's truly amazing! :)
Have a great day or night!
Lara xo