🐺 Alpha Jaxon 🐺

~ Chapter 8 ~

~ Jae' POV ~

It's been almost a week since that night we had dinner. I know I hurt my mate but I don't see having any children in my future.

Eve ~ Jae we are going to lose our mate if you keep this up.

Jae ~ Keep what up? Jaxon is the one that's not talking to me. Fuck he's even been avoiding me.

Eve ~ Yeah well in all honesty you deserve everything that he's dishing out. You told him you don't want children. Why don't you want to have pups with our mate?

Jae ~ It's not that I don't want to have pups with our mate. It's just I have never wanted children I never planned on having kids.

Eve ~ If you don't reconsider having children we could lose our mate. Do you want to lose our soul mate our one true love?

Jae ~ Honestly if Jaxon can't expect the fact that I don't want children then maybe we aren't meant to be. We also both know that Jaxon has a much stronger connection with Jaylon. Jaxon and Jaylon have been in love with each other since they were kids.

Eve ~ Seriously Jae what in the fuck is wrong with you? Jaxon loves us just as much as he does Jaylon yes they might have a stronger bond but he still loves us no matter what.

Jae ~ Nothing is wrong with me. If Jaxon loves us just as much then why in the fuck ain't he trying to work shit out? If he fucking loved us he would be trying to work this out.

Eve ~ You're a fucking idiot you're the one that is pushing him away. You're the one that fucking told him that you don't want to have his pups. Maybe it's you that doesn't love him did you ever think about that?

Jae ~ I do love him. At least I fucking told him how I feel about having pups. So just cuz I don't want to have pups I'm the bad fucking person here.

Eve ~ If you knew this whole fucking time that you didn't want to have children you should have told him right away. So yes you are the bad person right now. You fucking made him believe for 4 years that he was going to have pups with you.

Jae ~ Okay yes I'm the bad person but I also didn't want to lose my mate. Yes, I realize now that I should have been honest with him. We could have worked this all out but now I'm pretty sure he will leave me.

Eve ~ Well if our mate does leave us you can't blame anybody but yourself. Honestly Jaxon and Onyx deserve a mate that is going to love them and want what they want. Jaylon and Titan are perfect for Jaxon and Onyx cuz they want children as well. Yes, they have to adopt or find a surrogate mother but at least they both want this. What are you going to do if they both use a surrogate mother?

Jae ~ I will have to just face it if that comes. Do I want Jaxon to have someone else's children no but I can't give him what he wants. So I will just have to be happy for him and deal with it.

Eve ~ Wow even with that being a possibility you still won't change your mind. You are a fucking stubborn bitch you know that. I can't deal with you anymore all I have to say is get your fucking shit together.

With that Eve goes quiet I know she won't talk to me now for a while. She is 100% right I need to get my shit together but I will never change my mind on this. If I end up losing my mate over this then yes I have no one to blame but myself. Do I want to lose Jaxon no I don't but I can't force him to stay with me either? I head back into the house and I head up to my room. I can hear Jaxon and Jaylon in the kitchen they must have started to get something to eat but they ended up having sex. They could never keep their hands off of each other for that long. I really do miss my mate but I did this to myself and now I have to deal with it. I head up to my room and I lay on my bed I start to cry. I know I shouldn't be crying but I do miss my mate and he doesn't miss me. He's never going to mark me now not after all this. I should have just told him when we first met that I didn't want children. We probably could have worked something out. I end up crying myself to sleep when I wake up it's the next morning. I get up and shower then I head downstairs to have breakfast. I see Jaylon sitting at the counter drinking his coffee.