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thank you for reading the first chapter i hope you like it have fun!!

I was in deep thoughts when i heard namjoon, he asked me why i was looking so tired so i just replied with

"i didn't sleep much because i worked yesterday on the song" but i was lying,
i couldn't even ask myself why i am like this because i don't know whats wrong with me

"yoongi do you think we can do our debut" asked me hoseok

i didn't know either but i didn't wanted to make him sad so i said "ofcourse" like always

he hugged me and left again so i was on my own again, i didn't know what is happening with me every day repeats itself

i asked me every day who am i or what am i
and im sick of it, i have headache everyday from the hard work because we are getting ready for our debut and we all working really hard for it

ofcourse im scared but what can i do
im just hoping like everybody to make it

it was my dream to become and music producer because it makes me happy,
the music i do is making me happy but now i don't feel anything anymore, i feel like a empty human who can't feel anything

why am i feeling like this?
what did i do wrong?
why is nothing making me happy?

this questions are every day in my head and im so sick of it, why can't i end it

i just want to love my music again
i just want to feel love
i want to smile and feel happy

as i was in this thoughts i heard the door open as namjoon walks in again

"again in thoughts? you shouldn't worry to much about the debut we can do it! with the hard work we doing every day can we so it"

i don't worry about this

"oh yes i was thinking of our debut, but im not really worried because i know we can do it"
i replied with a small smile

but i lied again

"good setting!! i didn't know you where so positive, i like it!!" said namjoon with a huge smile on his face

i didn't know how he could smile like this i was so jealous of it why can't i smile like this to why am i like this

"i will head out you want to come with me?"
i looked up and answered with a small smile that i will head out alone in 10 min because i have to do something important

but i just wanted to be alone and go outside by myself, don't get me wring but i love namjoon but i still don't want any company

as i headed out i immediately felt the cold air
i slowly walked with headphones in my ears on the all rode

seeing and feeling the snow is making me feel cold and numb enjoying it lightly

as i watched the snow fall i heard a voice shouting my name so i turned around just to find hoseok in a cute big jacket and cloves

"oh hoseok i didn't know you like going outside?"

he just looked at me with a bride smile and said that he was buying something in a small shop as he showed me to hot coffees

"i saw you on the window as you walked past the coffee shop so i ordered two coffees enjoy it" he said to me with a little smile

as we walked past the little threes enjoying the cold breeze hitting our faces

"let's go home it's getting dark" said hoseok as i nodded a little and went home