Since Day One

Special Chapter 04 (Red & Sheka)

Red Jan Cirera

I'm a type of guy who likes to be sweet to people who is important to me. Tahimik akong tao pero alam ko kung kailan ako dapat na magsalita. I just like being quiet but I know when to open up. Hindi ako yung taong maging tahimik lang ang alam but I know when to speak not until something happen that makes me more quiet and makes me regret believing in love and also believing to every girls words.

Because for me, for girls it's all a joke for them. They like to make an action that can make a guy fall in love with them and in the end it's all a joke.

"What happen between you and Sophia?" Van asked nang mapansin niyang nag-iiwasan kami.

I want to get mad pero kasalanan ko din naman na naniwala ako sa kanya. I thought it's real but for her what is between us is all a joke. Bakit ba kasi ako naniwala? Mahal ko e.

"What?" I asked them at nagtama yung tingin namin ni Kalen and he just look at me at alam kong alam niya dahil siya lang naman ang kasama ko kahapon at siya ang nakakaalam ng nangyari.

"Wag mo akong mawhat what pula, ano nga nangyari?" he asked at nakita ko na hinila na siya ni Kalen patayo at isinama na rin nila si Nigel na mukhang magtatanong na din. Kalen knows that it's hard for me to say it kaya kahit na ayaw niya din kausap yung dalawa wala siyang choice.

Naiwan akong mag-isa at napatingin ako sa table kung nasaan sila Sophia and when I hear her laughing to her friends it makes me pissed. How can she laugh like that when she just fool me and make me believe that we had a thing.

"You told me you're in love with me" I said when I remember what she said to me before.

"It's a joke, Red. Do you believe that? I'm just teasing you!" she said and laugh at me and that makes me fucking mad.

"Teasing me? Really? You make me fall for you because I thought you feel the same way but all this time, I am wrong?" I ask her trying to stop my tears because I realize I am really a fool.

"Yes, didn't you know the word fun, Red?" she said.

"Do I look like I'm a joke? Fuck it, Sophia! I fall for you and yet you will say that you are just joking?" I said and when I saw nothing in his face like regret or anything. Wala akong nakita sa mukha niya that is why instead of making myself more pitiful in front of her mas pinili ko na lang na talikuran siya.

I don't know what to do anymore that is why I don't have a choice but to go to Kalen dahil sa mga kaibigan ko siya talaga ang matino kaya buti na lang talaga hindi siya tinigilan ni Van kaya naging kaibigan namin siya.

And that is the start of me hating girls. There are some girl saying to me that they have a crush on me but it's hard for me to believe them. Bakit ako maniniwala kung naloko na nga ako ng mga salita nila.

"We can engage him and Fernandez is a good choice!" I heard mom said nang makauwi ako galing school. I'm already grade 12 same as Kalen and Van at si Nigel naman first year na taking architecture.

And I am an only son and my sister is still young kaya sino pa ba ang pwede nilang maengaged sa iba. At kung yun man ang gusto nila edi tatanggapin ko dahil tingin ko sa buong buhay ko sobrang hirap ng maniwala sa mga salita na sasabihin ng mga babae.

"Red, you're here!" Mom said when she saw me. Since what happen between me and Sophia mas lalo akong naging tahimik but my friends are okay with that.

"If you are planning to engage me then go on, I don't care." I said at mabilis na umakyat ng kwarto ko.

And they really did because they just said that they already talk to the Fernandez at pumayag daw sila and my parents are excited about it not until they call it off dahil hindi daw pumayag yung isang anak nila na maengage yung babaeng dapat na maiengaged sa akin. I didn't even have a chance to meet her or anything.