the star that only shine for you

that gloomy night

On that night
Rainy night
I can only hear the rain drops
I tucked my self on those sheets
Because I felt so cold in my surroundings .
My mind and heart was blank
I just only felt some pain
I don't know where
In my body or mind
I wanted someone by my side
But when I opened my eyes
There where no one .
I know no one was there
But I hoped...

I hoped for someone on my side
From childhood to till now
But that space always stayed vacant.
I want to get out from here,
From this dark cold room
To a warm shining world
I want to see sun and stars
Blue ocean and hills
Butterfly's and green fields

Can someone come to my world
And bring me out from this cold.
I Don't want to hear thunder anymore,
I only want to get wet in
this rain drops.
Can you cut those thread
That held my heart crushing
Can you just come to my life
and smile at me
And give me hope
To live some more time.
Just little bit more time .
I will wait here ,
Because more than anything
I was always good at waiting....