Unfair | Cindy Berman

ᴠɪ: ɢᴜɪʟᴛɪʟʏ ʏᴏᴜʀs, ᴄɪɴᴅʏ

I was walking through the woods, sighing. Ziggy was giving me a hard time, I didn't want her to get kicked but it was getting really difficult because she doesn't stop setting up the camp. I was walking towards the Hanging Tree, I liked to spend some time alone there whenever I felt anxious or stressed. I stop my tracks when I see Cindy, sitting against the tree, crying. I spend some seconds fighting myself, should I go there? Fuck it.

"Are...Are you okay?" I ask, she lifts her head to me. She motions her head, basically saying no. I sit besides her, I know she probably hates my guts but seeing her like this kills me. "What happened?"

"Ziggy happened." she answers, while playing with the grass. "We...We had this argument, and she said some hurtful things to me, it's like, I'm trying so hard to become someone so I can leave this town for good and she just...She just keeps putting me down, saying that I can't ever leave this town." She explains.

"Ziggy can be a real pain in the ass." I say and she chuckles. "But really, this town is like...Hell on earth, but there's still hope for you to leave. I... I know some people that did actually leave, don't listen to her." I say as I put my hand in her leg, comforting her.

"I know there is but...But she actually has a point. I pretend I'm someone I'm not, I try to put this perfect version of me so I...I can actually have a chance to leave." She continues. "But not with you." She suddenly says and I stay silent. "It's like... with you I feel like I can still be myself and also leave this hell hole." She says and looks at me, she holds both of my hands and turns to her side, facing me. "I don't hate you. I've been thinking about it a lot actually and....I realized I was wrong. I'm not disgusted by the fact that you like girls, I... I was just scared because I know that would thin my chances of being miss perfect. I accept you Cassie." She says and I start crying, I don't say anything and smile in relief. She doesn't hate me. She didn't actually leave me. I put my arms around her waist and hug her, very tightly, like I didn't want her to go.

"Thank you so much." I say. "These past few days have been real shit because you weren't here and I've never felt so lonely." I continue.

"For me too." She replies, and I feel her smile on my neck, she gives me a kiss on the neck and breaks the hug, looking at me. "I'm totally coming back to our cabin by the way, the bed on the other cabin is awful and the person I'm sharing with snores so freaking loud." She chuckles and I laugh.

She didn't left me.

She doesn't hate me.

She actually accepts me and for who I am.

Cindy Berman, I swear I love you.

.-.

Our friend group was sitting at one of the Mess Tall tables, we were all eating and chatting with each other. Cindy was sitting in front of me, our eyes would interlock sometimes and I had to stop myself from smiling every time. The group already knew about our reconciliation, so everything was getting back to place. I suddenly feel Cindy's hand on my thigh, I look at her confused and she looks down, motioning me to look down too. I look and there's a piece of paper in her hand, we do this all the time. We would pass notes to each other, writing about anything, sometimes she would ask me to write something, a story, or anything, she loves my writing. I grab the paper and open it.

-ɪ ᴡᴀs ᴡᴀʟᴋɪɴɢ ᴛʀᴏᴜɢʜᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴀᴍᴘ ᴛᴏᴅᴀʏ ᴀɴᴅ sᴀᴡ ᴛʜᴏsᴇ ʟɪᴛᴛʟᴇ ɢʀᴇᴇɴ ғʟᴏᴡᴇʀs ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ʟɪᴋᴇ, ʀᴇᴍɪɴᴅᴇᴅ ᴍᴇ ᴏғ ʏᴏᴜ

ɢᴜɪʟᴛɪʟʏ ʏᴏᴜʀs, ᴄɪɴᴅʏ <3

I smile and feel my cheeks burning up, I can't help myself to think about the «guiltily yours», she never said that. I frown, but don't say anything. I flip the paper and write another note to her.

-ɢᴏᴏᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ'ᴠᴇ ʙᴇᴇɴ ᴏɴ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴍɪɴᴅ ʟᴀᴛᴇʟʏ :)

ɴᴏᴛ ɢᴜɪʟᴛɪʟʏ ʏᴏᴜʀs (?), ᴄᴀssɪᴇ <3

I sneakily pass the note under the table to her, feeling our fingers brush. She grabs and reads it, nonchalantly smiling, she stares at the note for a couple of seconds and I could feel something is on her mind right now. She gently wraps the note and puts it in her pocket. I look at Tommy and he's just zoned out, lately he's been zoning out a lot and I don't know if something happened to him.

"Tommy." I call for him and he snaps out, he looks at me. "Is everything okay?" I ask concerned.

"Yeah. I think Nurse Lane got me pretty good, my head has been pounding since that day." He responds.

"I think there's some tylenol at the infirmary, I can get it for you if you want." I say and he just nods. 

"Can I come with you?" Cindy asks and I smile at her.

"Of course." I reply and she happily gets up from her seat and walks by my side.

I open the door to the infirmary, and go the cabinets, looking for the pills. Cindy looks around too, she opens the door to the nurse's office. I find and grab the pills, shoving them in my pocket. I go to the nurse's office and see Cindy reading the Nurse Lane's book, she doesn't hear me, I suddenly grab her shoulders making her gasp.

"Jesus Christ Cassie! Why would do that?" She says putting her hand on her chest and I laugh hard.

"Because it's fun dummy." I reply and she rolls her eyes, looking back at the book.

"Look at this, it's creepy." She says showing me the book.

"Yeah, that's Nurse Lane's book I think, after Ziggy got into trouble we went here because she had a burn in her arm. Then we found this book, with this creepy shit in it." I explain. 

"I...I think she was studying Sarah Fier's curse." she says.

"Yeah, look at this." I reply and point my finger to the symbol in the book. "The witch's mark." I quote. 

"We shouldn't be looking at this stuff." She says placing the book in the desk. "I wonder what made her do that." She says while leaving the infirmary.

"Me too, she never seemed crazy or anything like that." I say following her to the Mess Hall.