redamancy

𝐓𝐖𝐎.

i don't know anymore.
chapter two -

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YOU'VE ALWAYS thought that the one whom you truly love will be there until the end of time. Laughing and smiling together with them, that's what you've always dreamed of. The butterflies that comes into your stomach while talking to him doesn't feel the same anymore as days pass by.

At first, you thought he would reject your confession but turns out he actually accepted it. You vividly remembered what happened during that day, you were filled with joy and the butterflies started to fly each part of your stomach. You were beyond belief after hearing those words.

Thinking about it now.... You wondered why Baji even agreed to be your lover. Your feelings are corrupted, you don't know what to feel whenever he's near you.

"[name]," Baji walks up to your figure in a empty classroom. You had your eyes fixated on the papers you were arranging om your table, humming acknowledging that he was there beside you. "I bought you some drink, you've been staying here for a long time now." He grins, places the bottled water ontop of your table, and takes a seat on the desk infront of yours.

It was obvious he was worried for your health. You were appointed to be the class representative the school year even though you were not willing- there was no other choice but to be the one taking the lead of an whole class.

A year after being in a relationship and the both of you are already in your second year of highschool. You barely have any time to hang out with Baji, your schedule was filled with papers to finish.

"Thank you, Kei-chan." Giving him your thanks, you continued writing on your journal. It was a hassle but you at least have a passing grade for the semester, studies was everything you could think about right now.

Baji never thought that he would actually catch any feelings at the woman sitting right infront of him. She shines brightly just like how a moon would shine the whole world up from darkness. The sweet tenderness of staying together with her makes his day complete. The man who has fallen deep in a love hole after months of her choosing to stay together with him, it was thee- Baji Keisuke.

"I haven't heard that name for awhile now," Baji rests his head on your table with his eyes kept on your tired face.

You yawned quietly, a hand covering your hand and small tears forming at the side of your eyes. "Really? I remember calling you kei-chan just yesterday though."

Nothing, you felt nothing hearing his voice unlike months ago when the both of you started dating and talking. Heart pumping fast and hands getting wet whilst anxiety taking over your whole body, hoping that you wouldn't mess things up for the both of you. The world shines its stoplight at the both of you.

"Hey, [name]," Baji calls out again wanting your attention. You hummed as a response not even wanting to look at his face.

The young man grins, "Fall is going to be here soon. Do you have any plans for the season?"

So quick? Didn't summer just started a few days ago? Pausing and keeping your face straight, you sighed lightly. "Not really. Probably just stay in my house and study the night."

Study here, study there- that's just all what you've been saying at your so called lover. Other times you would say you're busy with the assigned task a few teachers had given to you. Then a some friends would take you away from his grip- it feels like you were walking out inside his world.

"All you've been doing is just studying," Baji complains with a frustrated groan as you started to pile up the papers on your table. "Do you have no time for me?"

I don't know anymore, You froze. Time pilled up, thoughts all over the place, you couldn't even get things right. How did these feelings end up in a drain?

Oddly quiet, Baji raises a brow at your uneasy silence. It was just recently that you've been acting like this ever since the new semester had started- the once joyous laughter that lit up during the days. Baji's trying hard to give the same thing you did months ago. All he was seeing was the anxious frown that had left on your face.

"[name]...?" Softly, he called your name. Although he couldn't get a clearer glance at your face, he lifted his head up out of concern.

You sighed once again, hurriedly putting on a beam to reassure your partner that you're fine. "Sorry, I just remembered something that the teacher asked me to get."

Lies, you don't even know why you were lying infront of him. That fake smile you were giving, it hurts to fabricate everything up.

Baji composed himself, looking at your figure standing up. This is nothing for him, there's nothing wrong that could happen at his relationship with you.

He was just silently ignoring the aching pain that he had received from his chest.

"I really have to give this important stuffs," Your voice was soft but a hint of your voice was hastily. You looked at him with guilty eyes while he looks at you with pleading eyes.

Ahh... it feels like you couldn't breathe by just looking at his face.

"Maybe I could help you with it?" He was desperate- desperate to just stay with your side. You narrowed your eyes ignoring his and gulped, "Don't. You still have to work on your homework due tomorrow. I don't want to slow you down with your progress..."

Why. Just why are you leaving him just so fast?

"I'm really sorry, Kei-chan." You took a few steps backwards. Not wanting to see the face of Baji, you turned around without even looking back.

And that left a leaf falling down from its branch.