redamancy

𝐒𝐈𝐗.

it doesn't hurts.
chapter six -

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IT FELT lonely inside the room- same as usual you were there sitting whilst scribbling on your journal that was supposed to be passed in the next few days.

Tired... was the only word you could describe the situation you are in. But, what's the reason of being for?

Is it schoolwork? That you don't get time to relax yourself every single week? Or is it the situation that both you and Baji have? No, that can't be right?

You still love him, right? Even if you barely think of him... you would still love him and it's never going to fade away, right?

What is the situation you have with Baji right now? Why does it feel like he's so close yet so far at the same time? As he takes a walk towards you, you would unconsciously back your way out- stop.

That couldn't be.

Your mind filled with overwhelming thoughts and sweat of doubts that falls down from the side of your head. You swallowed and sighed, placing the back on your pouch and closing your journal, inserting both objects back on your school bag.

"[Name]," There goes his familiar voice echoing throughout the empty school room. You didn't bothered to look up on to his face and gave him a cold reply, "What is it?"

Baji can't even notice it- the look on your face and the tone of your voice. He still thinks that you love him and trying to be a hard to get lover- something like that.

After all, he did that to you way back from the start. There's nothing he has to worry about- He loves you really.

Baji just realized it not too long ago- he grew on to you and started treating you like a lover would do. He doesn't regrets anything, he swore he wouldn't mess up anymore.

The young man giggles as he leans on the wall with his shoulder and a grin left on his face, "Let's go walk home."

You pursed your lips into a thin line, curling your fingers as you made it as a fist with a tight grip. Are you gonna do it? You haven't been walking with Baji for some time now. You're always stuck inside isolated rooms where no one would try and disturb you.

It's... like comfort away from a world like this...

Letting out a forced laugh, "Sorry Baji-"

Baji? The ravenette felt a weigh on his chest. When did you started calling him Baji? Isn't it supposed to be Kei-chan? A stupid yet adorable name he agreed on letting you call him...? When the hell did it turned into Baji?

The downhearted feeling he tried to ignore but it keeps on tugging. Baji lets out a long sigh... he doesn't wanna start a fight with you.

A silent gasp, you paused after realizing the world you've said. "Sorry... Kei-chan... I... I'm quite busy, you see..."

"You keep on saying the same thing all over again," He walks towards your figure that was sitting on the desk and takes your bag with him.

You blinked, "What are you doing?"

"I'm taking you home." He blatantly says, you gapped at the man walking away from your figure.

What kind of man is he really? He's very stubborn from what you have seen but aren't you also stubborn? Maybe the both of you tolerated too much of each other's actions...

"Hey!" You ran with full speed to catch up with Baji who was feets away from you. Heck, both teenagers are already standing on the ground floor! Specifically speaking- they were feets away the school gates.

Panting for air, your legs grew weak from that short exercise you did just awhile ago. You're never good at sports at the first place- You'd rather stay indoors.

Baji spins around to meet at your panting figure. He had his and your bag on one hand- He tilts his head to the side slightly. "Man, you're slow."

"You literally have long legs, how the fuck can I catch up with you." Your eyes giving him that sharp glare. Baji giggles at your expression- he likes it.

You sighed, rolled your eyes to the side, and slowly made your way beside Baji's figure. "Moreover, I still have to process whatever was happening back there."

It was true- you weren't lying. You still had a few things left to do back in the classroom, even.

A small guilt arises from Baji's chest, he didn't mean for this to happen. For you to be tired out- he's been witnessing your stress just recently but he doesn't know how to confront it towards you.

What if he says the wrong thing? It felt like your body would disappear the moment he would touch your shoulders. He doesn't want that to happen- so he'll endure it all.

The pain- it's okay. Anything for you, his beloved.

"Huh," You raised a brow. Baji blinks and spins his head to take a glance at you- He arches a brow as well. "What is it?"

"You're unusually quiet," You pointed out. "Frankly speaking, you would never shut up-"

Yes, he would start to annoy you time to time- but you would try to ignore his actions and peacefully try to talk it out... that he should keep his voice quiet.

"Have you seen yourself before?" Wow, what a great comeback from Mister Keisuke Baji right over there.

"Shut it," Raising a fist to playfully punch his stomach. You glared- you truly despise your old self being clingy towards Baji almost every single day.

Surprisingly, he didn't mind it all at.

Baji lets out a laugh, "You're so cute."

"I don't wanna hear those words," Swiftly you covered your ears with both of your hands. What are you doing? Don't you wanna hear those words coming from him, [name]?

"Oh yeah," Baji decided to switch the topic. He didn't want a awkward conversation for the both of you. "We're gonna walk home, by the way."

"Do you want me to die with my aching legs," A frown made it's way on your face. Your legs isn't really aching... you were just lazy to walk home after doing work- yeah, work.

You examine the man beside you as he crouched down infront of you. You blinked, "....No."

Well, Baji didn't expect that answer from you! He looks behind, "C'mon now!"

"This is so embarrassing- I don't wanna." Having this close interaction with Baji? This all has to be a dream right? Because he won't even give you a proper glance back then....

"Just this once please?" Baji wants to make up with you- that's why he's doing this.

"No," Your voice was sharp.

A knife that cut through his heart- he saw a shadow of your figure walking ahead of him. He gulps, realizing that you were starting to be further away from him.

A distance between two lovers.