Dragonflies

CHAPTER 8

If you are familiar with the story of the forbidden apple, you'd know that it's in our very own nature to do things that we are not supposed to do. The urge to question all the 'don't s' and to go against the rules have always been in our blood. And we also know what happened to those who took a bite.

Now, virginity is one such fruit that is forbidden to lose until you get married. Or at least that's what we have been taught. So, many of us have wanted to break that rule and taste the juicy apple. But the interesting part is that the rules are only set for the girls. When a guy digs his teeth in, he is either appreciated or forgiven. But someone must be kicked out of the heaven, right? Well in this case, out of the society. 'Let it be the girl', one would say. Who knows how many Eves were thrown out in to the streets and suffered? Forbidden or not, it was just an apple. If it wasn't edible, one shouldn't have grown it in the first place. And in this case, if we can eat it after the matrimony, what is the harm in feasting when hungry? You only must make sure not to throw the seeds around. It's your garden, your apple. Nobody else has nothing to do with it.

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Despite of what I had heard and what people had told me, I recently found that losing your virginity is not that big a deal if it's with the person who you chose. Of course, I felt different both emotionally and physically but only for the first few days. After that life was as it has always been. And I was the same person as before, committing the grand act.

But then lot of other things have changed. My relationship with both my boyfriend and Aylan got a bit more complicated.

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"Do you feel different?" Aylan asked me.

"Should I?" I was puzzled.

"I was wondering if you felt anything different after... you know what!" He said.

"Physically I don't. Well had a little soreness here and there. That's gone now. And emotionally, I don't know. I surely don't feel like I have crossed a milestone. What about you?"

"Nope. I guess the society and media stereotyped sex as something way too huge."

"But the pleasure was humongous." I grinned.

"That it is." I am sure he would have winked at me if he was there.

"So... What's up with your boyfriend?" Did you guys..."

"Break up?" I finished it for him. "Nope. I was about to.

But then he asked for a second chance."

"And?"

"I gave him one."

"Hmm." He hummed.

"What?" I asked.

"Nothing. I love you too. I guess."

"Oh!" I felt numb.

"But I can't ask you to leave him or anything, right? Because I am not sure myself. Also, I cannot offer any commitments. Having feelings for you doesn't change my views about marriage and relationships. So, it really doesn't matter." He said.

"Okay." I tried to act as if it doesn't matter, like he said.

But it did. To me.

"Are you sleepy yet?" He asked me.

"Nope." It was quarter past 1 in the midnight. Usually I would've slept by then. But that day I was fully awake. Sleep was nowhere near me for at least a few more hours.