forever & always

Don't be happier

first chapter here we go

Present time.
Taylor's pov
''taylor let's go!''
"im coming!!" i yelled at selena and finished doing my makeup as i headed downstairs facing annoyed selena.

We both got in car and started riding to blake and ryan's house for new years party.

My thoughts wandered to somewhere else thinking how fun would we have, drinking, dancing, karaokes and oh secret santa!

We soon arrived and knocked on the door which was opened by Inez.
"auntie tay and sel!" she shouted and hugged us tightly.
"hey baby how are you?"
" 'm good!" she giggled and ran back to her room.
"hey guys" blake greeted us both.
"hii hope we're not too late" selena said.
"nope, but everyone's here come in!" ryan shouted and we all went in living room and talked to almost everyone when my heart stopped beating and everything went silent.

Joe.

I saw him with his girlfriend - Tiffany who were now together for 3 years and seemed very happy together. Very happy that i was already jealous wishing they couldn't have to be happier, wishing i was Tiffany and we hadn't broken up like that.

I was in relationship too - with adam but he was abusive and not everything seemed as perfect as people thought.

I thought i moved on but seeing him made me feel safe, like the first time and i almost went up to him but remembered what had happened between us so i just freezed on the couch faking smiles and nodding to everyone like i knew what they were saying.

Seeing him once again made the hole in my heart much bigger and more painful.
I really missed him, his ocean blue, sparkly eyes and his comfort, friends marathons with him and cuddles, his unforgettable scent and British accent..

It's all gone now, everything went by into moment of time, and all the left is heartbreak which time could never mend, only the pain gets much to handle and you just end up with panic attack or passing out on cold tiled floor.

Lost in thoughts i don't even realize that im staring him until he looks right in my eyes and smiles a little.
I smile back and tear up. Without thinking i run in bathroom and break down there.

Joe's pov
I notice taylor and look at her but I don't get the reaction i expected.
We make an eye contact but i don't see the spark in her eyes anymore, she looks destroyed.

I see tears in her eyes and runs in bathroom. Without any word i run after her and knock on the door.

"hey taylor! Can i come in?"
I only got soft sobs as answer and i couldn't keep it anymore i opened the door and saw taylor curled up in a small ball and sobbing quietly.

My heart broke into million pieces and i knelt down and hugged her, rubbing small circles on her back knowing it calmed her down.

"im so-sorry" she sniffled.
"don't apologize, why were you crying?"
She stayed silent for a moment but then spoke up.
"i- i haven't s-seen y- u for a l-long a-and i don't k-know sorry"
"awww you missed me?"
She nodded and i smiled and kissed her on the head breathing her scent for the first time after years.

I felt some of emotion, i don't know it isn't love it isn't hate it's just a difference.

I rubbed her arm and she winced "ow"
"what is it?"
"n-nothing"
I knew she was lying, it took me time but i really know her and knew when she was lying.
"taylor i know you're lying, tell me what is it"
"I SAID IT'S NOTHING LEAVE ME ALONE!" she screamed and ran from bathroom.

I knew she wasn't gonna tell me anyways and i didn't ask her any more questions, she even avoided me all night.

Yeah she has always been like this, she doesn't need help she can take care of herself, why did i even went to bathroom?

I was angry at her anyways so i tried to forget her but i failed of course. I had her in my had till midnight.

[2 days later]
Me and Tiffany had doctor's appointment today. We were going to find out baby's gender and have announce party.

"im so excited!" she said while we entered to hospital.
"me too ba-" i stopped in the middle of the sentence and stayed shocked for what had i just saw...

Ha! Cliffhanger. On the first chapter yes.
Ya'll are welcome💌

anywayssss ty for readinggggggg have a good day/night - sof<3