forever & always

Delicate

Hi.
*Present time*
Joe's pov
"me too ba-" i stopped in the middle of the sentence and stayed shocked for what had i just saw..

Taylor was rushed into hospital, her arms and neck full of bruises and her clothes full of blood. She was unconscious there, lying loosing lots of blood.
I haven't seen her like this since Caitlin accident. Since the night she tried to end her life with everything we had.

"we're losing her doctor!" a nurse screamed and i just stayed there frozen(let it goooo let it gooo)
i saw selena following them and i let go of Tiffany's hand and rushed over selena.

"sel what happened?"
"adam tried to kill her" she said through tears and hugged me.
I wasn't completely shocked, taylor hasn't been actually happy since they started dating.
"joe our appointment!" Tiffany yelled angrily.
"yeah go and I'll follow soon" i said and turned back to selena.

"do you know what exactly happened?" i asked her.
"n-no she- she called me and told me she needed help as quiet as possible s-so adam wouldn't he-ear her" she sobbed and cried on my shoulder.
"i have to go now but I'll turn back as fast as i can, don't worry sel she's strong" i told her and ran to Tiffany who was now on the bed waiting for me.

"ugh finally" she rolled her eyes.
"so let me put on gel and see the baby" nurse said and soon we saw a little baby on the screen who looked more like a bean than a baby.
"so u wanna know the gender?"
We both nodded together "soo the baby is a girl!" she said and i hugged Tiffany, both of us excited.

"oh my god im soo happy right now" she said rubbing the bump while we came out.
"me too, i love you so much" i kissed her and soon i remembered taylor and selena.
"babe you can go home i will to stay here for a while"
"ugh fine" she said and went home.

"Selena how's taylor?" i asked sel as i ran over.
"we didn't lose her joe thank god but she's in terrible condition" she said and almost started crying again.
"shh don't cry okay? She'll be okay im sure, she's so strong, she's the strongest woman and she will be okay now don't cry alright?" i tried to cheer her up and she nodded and hugged me again burying her head in my shoulder.

I chuckled at her reaction.
I always knew there was some chemistry between us.

"mrs gomez?"
"yes?"
"she lost lots of blood and she's in coma now, we don't know when she will wake up sorry"
"it's okay, thank you doctor.. And can i see her?" i asked and she nodded.

I entered the room and saw her lying there delicately. She looked so calm and pale, but still so gorgeous. I went over and sat down on chair holding her warm hand, rubbing it with my thumb.
"hey um so, this is gonna be awkward but i miss you so much, please don't leave us, i miss your sparkly eyes and- and your your soft laugh, how would all your features lift up a little when you were smiling, it could make anyone happy. I was stupid - stupid to let you go like this. I- i was the luckiest man alive, i had you i had you when everyone could die to just meet you and i-" i was barely able to keep my speech without breaking down but i made it through finally "I'm so sorry for what have I done and i hope you will wake up soon" i finished and took a deep breath until stroking her soft cheeks which now had a little blush on and kissed her temple until existing room and breaking down.

I soon went home to grumpy Tiffany who just complained that i only cared about taylor, i just rolled my eyes and went to shower.

I stripped off my clothes and went in shower letting hot water take over me. I finally rest somehow and clear my mind which had been going through millions of miles and I can't help but focus on taylor. I still have some feelings for her but i don't know what i really feel deep inside me. I just know that if i lose her, i won't be able to survive i can't lose her second time, like this.
I did wrong decision letting her go but i won't make same mistake, i just need her to survive or i don't know i just don't know what will i do without her.

I can still feel her hands all over me, her electric blue, sparkly eyes lookin' in mine.

I tear up remembering all the fun we had together but now? It's all gone, it's all gone with her.

"joe? Are you okay?" Tiffany yells
"yes! Im coming out already" i try to not sound worried and i gain my 'lovable look' again and step out of shower.

"hey babe" i whisper to her ear as i get into bed.
"mmm" is all i get.
"huh?" i chuckle "sleep baby, rest... With me" i laugh and wrap my arms around her bump and fall asleep with her.

[a while later]

I wake up from a nightmare, sweating and shaking. I check the clock 2am ugh.
Wait a message?

Selena
Joe, taylor she..

I open the message and get up immediately, putting on clothes and heading to hospital immediately.

Lol anyways um hope this story isn't as cringe as i think- *cries*
Okay ty for reading thoo
Have a good day/night - sofie