forever & always

No Body, No Crime

Tw: death, blood!!
Present time
Taylor's pov

He's gonna regret this.

I grab knife from under the couch and stab him instantly as my face gets covered with his blood. I stare at him while he clutches his stomach in pain and falls down on the ground, his eyes closing slowly. I watch dark, red blood soak his own clothes and get all over the floor when i suddenly realize what i did.

I drop the knife and cover my mouth with my hands while salty tears are streaming down my face.

"what did i do, what did i do" i repeat over and over again as i stare at his dead body.

"no one can find out this" i say and wipe tears out of my eyes, making a plan in my head.

I sit down for a while and scratch down everything in my diary for an hour.
Ha! got it.

I get up and wrap his body in a mat trying not to have a panic attack or pass out there. As i success, i make sure nobody's outside so i carefully drag his body outside and place it on a trunk. I get in and start driving until i finally reach the place.

I get out still making sure no one's watching even though it's 2am and i move his body fast on the edge. Then i take deep breath and throw his body in the lake.

Trying to think as like nothing happened, i get back in trunk and start driving home. I put on some calm music and finally reach house.
I get out and step inside which is such a mess.

I start cleaning every single thing. I hardly wash the floor from all of already dry-blood, then i try to clean the edge of couch which really didn't go as i planned. After making sure everything is clean, i go upstairs to take a shower. I pull out pajamas and go to bathroom, turning on hot water. I strip down my clothes and put them in washing machine(is this right?).

I stare at my reflection which is half covered in blood and i step inside the bathtub, letting myself clam down under the water. I clean myself from all blood and get out soon, getting myself comfortable in bed but not falling asleep from overthinking.

What am i going to tell people??

but right now no one will suspect all of this right? At least i hope so.

I come up with some ideas but decide to deal with it later so i let myself slowly relax and fall asleep.

[next day]

I hardly open my eyes and look over the clock. 11:00 really? It's still early. I try to go back to sleep but i fail of course. Everything scares me right now.

What if the police finds out? What if i go to jail? What am i going to do?

I suddenly remembered i have a plan! I get up and put on robe quickly as i run downstairs and take journal from last night.

So. Im just gonna tell people that he went out of country for work? they're gonna believe that? Well at least i can try and pretend for a few weeks but then I'll have to fill up missing person's documents(lmao idk if this is right sry).

I go to kitchen and try to find something to eat but i only find alcohol so i just go with it. I really don't care that my throat is burning right now i just need to take off my mind of everything.

Soon i finish the whole bottle and decide to open another one but my body can't take it so i just pass out on the kitchen floor.

Joe's pov
Another morning. Another same day. God what have i done? Can't i just get a normal, peaceful life?? These three months have been the most painful days for me. After all these time i still haven't moved on and i don't look like myself. I've lost lots of weight and all i do is sleep, cry and drink.
My family tried to cheer me up but nothing can help me at this point. She really did broke me. She she she i can't even say her name anymore i hate her with all of my heart. After all these time. After everything we've been through she tells me she isn't ready?? Well i can't blame her but i really don't have anyone to blame it on.

So i just came to out Rhode Island house to take my time and think. It feels good here but also painful cause everything is connected to her. Every single thing reminds me of her, even though i hate her, deep inside i still have some love for her but anger is taking all over me right now and i just wanna get rid of her and all the memories we have made together.
It just hurts.

I slowly get up and drag myself to change and eat a little, then i grab drinks and go to roof like we used to. I make myself comfortable on the chair and stare the sun finally feeling myself relaxing a bit. I close my eyes slowly, trying not to think about taylor and let myself fall asleep. Again.

Taylor's pov
I yawn and open my eyes stretching my arms confused, when i realized i must've fallen asleep here. No passed out here from all the alcohol. Still being lazy, i get up and go collapse on couch.

I just think about joe. I could use his help but we don't talk anymore. I broke his heart so he probably would've killed me if he saw me. I wish i could apologize but it's not the best idea now. I stare at the ceiling trying not to think about what i did last night. I literally killed an actual man. I am still in shock, how could i do it? I cover my face with my hands and sigh loudly.

I can't fix it this time.

YA'LL PLS APPRECIATE THE FACT THAT I UPDATED. I almost had a panic attack writing this chapter just because of a damn movie(the story reminds me of it) which i decided to watch and even tho it wasn't horror it scared me and now im traumatized✨ again.
Anyways Christmas break is close and i may be more active soon:)

ty for reading🤍

-btw ik the chapter is so damn cringe sorry-