forever & always

Like we used to

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Present time
Joe's pov

It's been a while since we tried to get taylor back which kinda started working out. She doesn't talk nonsense anymore but also doesn't talk about anything at all. She doesn't eat, drink, talk or even move. It pains me to see her like this but we really can't do anything anymore. We're taking her to therapy this week.

I opened the door slowly, trying not to wake up taylor and i make my way towards her room - it's my turn to look after her today. I gently open the door and find her asleep, curled up on the bed, lost in the blankets.

I smile slightly and come back downstairs, starting to make some breakfast. I start making pancakes and chuckle to myself, remembering all the fun we had together.

Flashback
Taylor's pov
I dance around the kitchen with eggs in my hands, trying to make some pancakes. I guess im not a perfect chef but at least i can try making some breakfast right?

I turn on "poker face" and start screaming the lyrics not caring Joe's full asleep upstairs.

I put bread in toaster and turn back to pancakes which happened to burn with bread. Great what an eventful morning.

"morning babe" joe yawns and looks around the kitchen confused.
"hi love" i offer him a smile and continue "making breakfast"
"watcha doin' hm?"
"you knoow some breakfast"
"want some help?"
"nope! Im done" i grin and we both start eating.

"mm the pancake's really good" joe says while he's face tells me otherwise.
"really? Thank you so much!" i say excitedly and take a bite of it.

Oh god this is the most awful thing I've ever tasted.

"no nope not today" i spit out the food and start cleaning up everything.
"wait no it's really good" joe says but he can't convince me obviously.
"you know what it's alright I'm gonna make you a banana"
"you're gonna make me a banana?"
"im gonna make you a banana!!"
"thanks" he says in a small voice.

End of the flashback

Without realizing i notice i already made the whole breakfast so i just should wait for taylor to wake up. I sit down and scroll through phone when i hear screaming from upstairs, i turn off the phone and head upstairs immediately.

Taylor's pov
I wake up early today and hear shuffling from the kitchen. Assuming it's joe i stay in bed and stare at ceiling. When did all of this happen?
I feel devastated. I can't think clearly, my whole mind is a mess. I can't even feel anything anymore and i don't know what i am doing with my life. I can't even recognize myself in front of mirror, it feels like i am dead and it's just my body trying to survive somehow. Im fully gone.

Just as I'm about to get up i notice someone's in the corner of my room.
Confused, i make my way towards her and put my hand over her back "hello?" i ask.
That's when she suddenly returns and proves I'm still insane.

She is ME! (sorry but-) dressed in white clothing, mascara all over my face just laughing like a psycho.

"hi taylor" she laughs again and stares at me.
"leave me alone" i lean against the wall.
"oh why should i? Did we forget what you did?" she grins like a devil making my blood freeze.
"no i didn't do it i didn't do it i didn't do it i didn't do it" i cover my ears and start crying.
"of course you did, it's your fault your mother died ALL ALONE, you weren't with her when she died remember? She was all alone saying "where's my baby" while she was dying alone"
"no no no stop!" i shout but nothing can stop her.
"aww scared sweetie? How could you let your mum die all alone? All she thought about was you but you were out having fun while she was going through hell, you did this to her!"
"STOP!!" i screamed and fell on my knees trying to escape this mind games but she wasn't going and i was getting more crazy with every minute, thank god Joe's home.

I saw joe rush in and kneel down next to me, taking me to his lap and hugging me tightly. I just broke down in his arms but he just kept rubbing my back and trying to stop me from shaking uncontrollably.

"it's okay, it's okay you're okay" he whispered in my ear and tightened his grip around me. After all these years it felt good and refreshing having his comfort.

"i swear it's not my fault" i kept soaking his shirt with tears.
"i know i know, it's okay" he said and kissed my forehead which really helped me to calm down.

Eventually i my tears slowed down and i let go of me in his arms, taking all the comfort he gave to me. He picked me up and took me downstairs, placing me on couch and turning back with some breakfast.

"taylor you need to eat okay?" he said but i just stayed silent. I didn't have energy to eat or respond.
"please taylor" he started begging but it didn't work out either.

He sat down next to me and looked in my eyes which was just full of pain.
"please, if not for me, for yourself, taylor please"
I couldn't stand it anymore so i took few bites. We really were acting like an old married couple which made me giggle. Clearly i meant something to joe cause his eyes lit up when he saw me giggling and he chuckled too.
So without a reason we both started laughing. Clearly both of us need therapy.

After some friends marathon joe took my upstairs to sleep but i really didn't want him to leave, i felt safe with him. Like i used to.
"hey joe"
"hm?"
"will you stay with me until i fall asleep?"
"sure" he said and sat down on bed next to me, running his hand up and down my legs and playing with my hair helping me to fall asleep. Soon it really worked and i fell into a deep and needy sleep.

Idk what this nonsense is but anyways💀
some ideas were taken from tv series "the flash"

Anyways everyone stay safe, ily🤍