forever & always

death by a thousand cuts

present time
Joe's pov

We haven't heard anything from taylor past two weeks and i got so worried so me, sel and gigi went to see her. Obviously we didn't expect what we saw.

"taylor?" selena knocked but she didn't respond.
"here i have the key" gigi handed selena key and we stepped in her house.

"taylor?" i shouted but still no response.
"taylor where are you?" gigi said.

Suddenly we saw her coming downstairs, she was pale like a ghost and she was extremely underweight, her hair was a mess and her eyes were red from crying. It was like she hasn't slept or eaten for all these days.

"taylor!" i shouted and went towards her but she just smiled and stared at us.
"taylor are you alright?" selena hugged her, already crying.

taylor just smiled then frowned
"can you hear the stars singing, rhyming, chiming, turning. every hour every minute" she was now pacing back and forth and she had her head in her hands.

We all looked at each other worried, obviously she had gone crazy by shutting everyone down and keeping everything to herself.

"taylor it's me selena, can you hear me?"
"i shouldn't be here. I swear i didn't kill anyone" taylor cried.
"taylor" i tried to approach her but she stepped back and stared at me
"stars melting like ice cream,
dream, gleam" she cried then screamed. She fell on her knees and continued crying.

"I'll take her upstairs, sel gigi make her some soup she needs to eat" i said and picked taylor up who was shaking uncontrollably.

I placed her on bed and looked around the room. There were papers all over floor and there was some blood on walls, knife on the table.

I suddenly realized everything and looked her carefully on arms, she had scars all over it.
My heart clenched at this sight, she obviously didn't deserve this and i did this to her.

"no go away" taylor screamed and wrapped her amrs around my back.
I hugged her back, confused, no one was in the room except me and her.

"no no don't touch me" she cried and tightened her grip on me.
"hey hey it's me joe, you're safe, you're okay" i knelt down and looked in her eyes which was only full of fear and pain.

"he's trying to kill me" she sobbed and pointed at wall.
"no one is here except me and you, you're safe okay?"
"no no i don't wanna die" she continued crying. I was on verge of crying too, but selena and gigi stepped in room with bowl so i stood up and let them to her.

"what happened?" selena asked.
"she thinks someone is trying to kill her" i replied.
"okay?" she said and sat on the bed with taylor.

"taylor you gotta eat okay?" she said and took spoon in her hand.
"no i didn't kill caitlin" taylor only continued crying.

why does she think she killed our child?

somehow we convinced her to eat between sobs and girls took taylor for shower.
Now she looked way more better except we didn't know how to have her mind back.

We tugged her under sheets and stayed with her until she fell asleep.

"so do we take her to therapy?" we were now sitting downstairs on the couch.
"no i don't think it will work, maybe we should try it ourselves" i said.
"yeah i don't know" gigi sighed.
"well it's worth a shot, if it won't work after 3 weeks we really should get her therapy" selena said.
"yeah i agree" gigi said and i nodded.

"you guys go home I'll stay with her" selena said and me and gigi headed to our homes.

"hey babe im back" i said but i was met by moans and my naked, pregnant girlfriend and some naked man.

Tiffany suddenly gasped and looked at me with no regret or shame.

"i can exp-"
"no i don't need any explanation just leave"
"but-"
"LEAVE!" i shouted and she and him got up dressing up.

She was now heading out when i stopped her to confirm my doubts.

"is the baby his?" i asked.
"joe-"
"just answer my fucking question!!" i shouted again.
She shook her head and looked down.
"leave. NOW!" i shouted and she left without a word.

I just collapsed on the couch, not knowing how to feel.
Did i even love her?
No i did but we lost our connection after i met taylor.
She wasn't the one. Taylor was.

But now nothing mattered, taylor had gone crazy because of me and my girlfriend cheated on me.
I was kinda happy, i wanted to break up with her anyways but just couldn't cause of child. But now after i found out the child isn't mine i don't care anymore, she can go and live wherever she wants.

I just need to get taylor back.

I sighed and went to bed, this will be a very long journey.

Lol sorry this chapter is short but anyways someone help i have school tomorrow and i know noothiiing ahh wish me luck😔😔

AND YA'LL TY FOR 1K ON THIS BOOK ALREADY OMG

anywayyys ty for reading, have a good day/night - sofie🤍