Dreams And Affections

Chapter 2: Who Is She?

"Val.."

"Val can you hear me?"

BEEP. BEEP. BEEP

I have been awakened by the noise of my alarm clock that has been making.

I opened my eyes and my visions were kinda blurry so I rubbed my eyes gently, Tho, yesterday I wasn't feeling well. My whole body went weak and cold, I also felt dizzy. And all I can remember that I was in someone's backyard, and I saw a girl leaning on her post near her house. It seemed like she is having a hard time. Was she sick?

And I remembered I was calling a girl's name in my sleep before I woke up.

Who is she? Who's Val?

I groaned while I turned to face my desk lamp beside my bed to shut my alarm clock, "7:00 AM..", I mumbled.

"Burton, get up, you're gonna be late." I heard the cold tone of voice of my Father coming from beside my door, "Coming, Papa.." I answered.

"Can't you manage your time? You are always like this. Obviously been so lazy." He added and left my room.

When I heard his footsteps had gone further, I let out a sigh and sat up on my bed. I picked my shirt up from the floor and put it on and made my way to the bathroom to freshen myself up.

After a few minutes of brushing my teeth, I immediately took a shower and put on the clothes that I will be wearing for school. It's just the usual shades of color I wear, a pair of Black shirt and pants, and my dark red knitted sweater.

I'm Burton Bishop, 17. I'm from Russia, and I live with my father, well sort of. Some people in school who likes to mess with me in a bad way calls me 'Burglar' because there is this rumor that they spread about my Father that he stole a company. I honestly don't know anything about that because we don't communicate that much. My father mostly just scolds me around when he sees something wrong in the House we are living in. I never called it 'Home' it never felt like home, it always feels like hell. Especially when my Father is drunk and angry. He would usually hurt me whenever he is in that situation.

When I was done preparing, I went downstairs to grab a french toast. But I also noticed that my Father's car isn't in our garage anymore, what do I expect? he is always like this. He didn't even bother to leave a note or money for my needs. I don't see him as my Father-Figure anymore. I still don't understand why my mom left, she said she'll never leave me.. I guess it was just some sort of a fairytale, what she said wasn't real. She still left.

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"And so, if the number of nickels is N and the number of dimes is D, then.." The voice of Mr. Hughs our math teacher fades away in my head because I wasn't listening. Math makes me so sleepy and for me whenever it's math period, I feel like the day takes forever. So I usually just face the window.

I still can't move on from my dream, and the name of a girl, I'm still curious about her. And there's this feeling in my chest that we somehow have a connection, I know I haven't met her yet nor I don't know if she exists. I just feel that we have a connection.

While I'm still running a few questions in my head about that woman I saw in my dream, I felt something that gently hit my head and it landed on my table and it caught my attention. A crumpled paper?

I picked it up and opened it, "emo twat." I read silently in my head from the crumpled piece of paper, I looked up to see who threw this at me, when I saw Jason laughing silently with his friends, I already knew he's the one who threw this garbage at me. I just shook my head, Jason and his friends are the only students who likes to pick on me. And the rest of the class just stares at me sometimes or whispering from the distance spreading unnecessary rumors about me. This isn't new, It's always like this.

"Mr. Bishop." I heard Mr. Hughs called my name and it made me look at him, I hesitantly stood up.

"Yes, Sir?" I responded.

"Would you like to repeat what I said?" He asked.

And obviously, I didn't answer, because I didn't know what it was I wasn't listening, I was too focused on my own thoughts.

"Very well then, maybe you should've pinned your ears to the class, in order for you to catch up." Mr. Hughs added in a cold tone, I also heard Jason and his group of friends laughing from the distance and it just made me sigh.

"Yes sir, will do." I answered while looking down.

"Take a seat." Mr. Hughs said and I did what he said and just look at the window beside me. I just want to disappear or maybe run away somewhere far away with that girl I saw in my dream, she gave me a slight comfort even tho I haven't completely seen her.

Ah, what am I even talking about? I don't even know if she exists.

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[NOW PLAYING: "Trees - Twenty One Pilots"]

I went to the park near my house, I didn't want to attend my class even tho it's my last period I want to be far away from everyone else. Who am I kidding? I always feel this way every day.

I sat on an empty swing, watching the sun and the tall grasses swaying by the cold wind.

"Burton.."

"Burton where are you?"

"I need you."

I heard a gentle voice of a woman whispering to me, It made me stood up from the swing I was sitting on.

I looked everywhere I don't know if I'm going nuts, who is calling me? am I imagining things? was that the girl I saw in my dream? who is she? where is she? why does she need me?

If this is you Val..

I want to know you..

I want to see..

I want to say Hello..

I need you too.