Dreams And Affections

Chapter 14: In Your Arms

Valerian Blanche's POV

After I shut my bedroom door, Everything I feel right now is I can't breathe, I can't pull myself together, I feel like a mess again. Mom, what are you planning?

I saw my window, and I wanted to run away, for now, I wanted to be far away and breathe air, I don't care if it's late at night nor I don't care if it's cold outside. I want to let this out no matter what.

I went to my desk to use it as a footstool, I slowly opened the window. I looked outside and I can see it's not that high from the ground. I carefully went out and stepped on our roof. Once I made it I slowly shut my window.

I carefully let myself fall to the ground, and then I ran away from our house.

I ran and ran as far as I could, I can feel my tears falling from my eyes and running down through my cheeks. My visions are so blurry because of my wet tears blocking my sight.

To the park...

I want to let this all out to the park where Burton took me earlier.

[NOW PLAYING: Better - Khalid] {on loop}

I kept on running until I bumped into someone and that made me yelped and fell to the ground.

I slid my hair blocking my sight until I saw...

Burton?

What... What is he doing here at this hour?

I saw his eye that looked sore, What happened?

I stood up and immediately wiped my tears away, "Burton? What... What are you doing here?" I asked while stuttering and looking away.

"I was about to ask you the same thing..." He said and his tone of voice sounds like he isn't in the mood.

I took the courage to look at him, His facial expression looks so blank, I walked closer to him and gently touched his face but he immediately looked away, "Dont." He said.

I sighed and looked down, "I heard my parents fighting, and my mom was planning a divorce on my Dad." I said, and I felt him looked at me once again.

I walked towards the empty swings and I can hear his footsteps following mine.

I looked at the distance and smiled sadly and let tears fall onto my eyes, "I thought we are going to be a happy family again." I said and I sniffled.

"My Dad beat me up, Again. He said I'm useless whenever I'm dutied to take care of the house." He explained and then we both looked at each other.

"Is that why... You are here too?" I asked and he just nodded.

My body controlled by itself and it made me hug him, I know he needed it so I just let myself be. I felt his arms and hands around me and he hugged me back.

"At least I have someone whom I can talk to with my problems now." He whispered above my head. "Me too..." I answered.

Both of us slowly sat on the ground, still hugging each other. Tears continuously ran through my cheeks, I felt Burton's fingers on my face slowly wiping them away, I felt so calm and safe and comforted. 

All we can hear is the soft whistle of the wind, The creaking sound of the chains coming from the swings, and crickets chirping from the tall grass. 

"I'm sorry..." I blurted.

"About what?" He asked while he is stroking my hair gently.

"About what happened to you." I added.

"It's alright. I'm glad actually, for bumping into you and finally having a person who can comfort me through my problems." He said and that made me slightly smile.

"I'd say the same thing to you. Let's promise we won't let ourselves separate from each other no matter what." I said and I looked up at him seeing his calm face.

"Promise." He said with a soft smile.

"Oh wait, am I making you..." He paused and he didn't know what to say next. I held his hand to calm him down, "No it's alright, let's stay like this for a while. This feels nice." I said.

He let his arms surround me and I leaned onto them.

"Meeting you wasn't an accident, Burton." I said and he softly chuckled. "And to be honest I waited for a person like you." He answered and I smiled.

Two broken teenagers, calming down each other's broken situations. Burton made me feel like to be the person I am for the first time. He made me laugh like my real laugh. I'll do anything for him to not get hurt. This is the first time that I don't want to lose someone, Someone Special. And that's him.

I'll always be there for him, I don't care what the people will say.

His warm feeling, his soft dark red knitted sweater, his soft hand, and his gentle touch made me feel safe and sound. Despite all the problems we both have, the one thing that made us feel safe is being with each other.

Then this means I did not regret moving here, If I still refused then I am not here in this comfortable situation with him, or I didn't meet the person like him that I actually needed.

Feelings...

Affections...

Love.

Am I in love with you?

"Maybe you are the girl that I've been dreaming of." He blurted, "You made me feel calm and protected ever since I met you. And by hearing your voice I feel warm in a good kind." He added while we are still holding hands and enjoying the peace and the night sky at the park.

"And maybe you are the boy that I had seen when I hallucinated. I guess you are the one that I've been looking for. I wanted it to be you, And if it is you then I'm glad." I responded then I felt his head leaning onto mine gently.

"Are we going to be more than this?" He whispered.

I smiled softly, "Let's figure it out." I said.

Until we continued to rest on each other, I felt my eyes being heavy and weak and I just let them close, and I can still feel our hands intertwined to each other.

I love you, Burton.