Ellie's Diary

Chapter 2

Dear whoever is reading this,

The day i met him, will be one of days i will always remember, on that day we had a dance rehearsal, it was exhausting, listening to the same boring traditional music over and over again, twirling and holding up the props.

Everyone was dressed in their PE uniform, the bright colors of my classmates' uniform was hurting my eyes, red, yellow, green and blue, not to mention the color of one of the props we had to hold up was a bright yellow fabric. All these just for the upcoming national day. I was moving soon so I didn't bother to put any effort into learning and memorizing any of the moves, while limiting my moves and saving my energy for my afternoon classes (keep in mind that we were rehearsing for HOURS) and only given a 30 min break lol.

I let my eyes wander around my surroundings, in hopes to get rid of the excruciating headache (not.. HAHAHA)

I was actually looking for a cute brown curly haired, basically a walking red flag boy to drool over from afar but i was instead met with with a pair of unfamiliar dark brown eyes which i immediately adverted my eyes from because he was literally looking right back at me but i did notice he was wearing a white shirt and not the bright PE uniform we had on. I pretend it didn't happened and look straight ahead hoping that he doesn't think he's all that just because i looked at him for a good few seconds.

I think we all (girls specifically) know that feeling when you can feel and just know that someone is staring into your fucking soul? That was what i felt. He was new at that time i think.. 
I mean..obvi, why else would he not be in our uniform right? (this was like early January 2018 which means that i for one, don't have a photographic memory and exact details of what i thought of at that exact time and date) though later on i told Brooks about what happened and whined to her about how creepy that was and she was like ?? There's a new guy? But anyway he turned out to be one of her previous classmate, she told me his name, which i thought immediately he definitely does not look like a "Daniel", he looks like he is more of a Ryan or something

Later on during the day i had an extra class to attend, i was waiting for Brooks when i saw him again and he squinted his dark brown eyes at me, his eyes' wrinkles creased on the side of his eyes. I guess he noticed i was staring shamelessly (in my defense only because he did the same) he slowly approached me,
"Hi, what's your name" he asked me.
"Kelly" I answered, uninterested.
I knew he was Brooklyn's old classmate and I wasn't interested in him, (Brooks told me she finds him annoying)

Back to the story, that night I received a notification that says "Dani3l.R requested your instagram" i thought, okay why not stalk him. He sent me a dm that exact same day.
Now don't make fun of me for this *eye roll but i had a Shawn Mendes phase where i was obsessed with him. obsessed as in posters everywhere and his name on every social media platform i owned and his name was literally my passwords too ( he's still fine though) He was my profile picture on my Instagram at that time *sigh and that was what he texted me about. Which i thought was super lame when he asked me "So, you like Shawn Mendes?" As if it wasn't already obvious as fuck

So we started talking to each other, on a daily basis, just regular conversation and small talks.
I found out that he's a really sweet guy, with brains at that. He's smart- SMART like book smart and MATH smart. Not to mention, athletic and talented. He plays football, badminton, table tennis, swims and he can sing, play the piano and a guitar (every girl's dream guy and every parents' dream son in law)

I saw him regularly at school but we never really talked, the most we did was look at each other and nod as a sign of acknowledgment. From a few good looks you can tell that he is indeed attractive. Daniel is about 185cm tall, with black wavy hair that falls right above his eyes and he wears a square old fashioned glasses that makes him looks nerdy (brooks and i gave him the nickname "glasses" because of this), he has a beautiful nose bridge (that i am very jealous of) and plump lips.  From our daily messaging, he actually turned out to be a pretty funny guy and is extremely extroverted. Though, i know my description of him might make you think I'm in love with him already or something but i don't think i ever fell for him. Despite his lack of imperfections, it made me feel less attracted to him.

Fast forward to 14th February 2018, i had already moved schools at this time around and i no longer attend Davidson Academy. (Yes i did cried like a baby leaving my friends behind to start in a completely new environment) Daniel asked me out on VALENTINE'S DAY Omg?! I had so much butterflies i felt like i was going to pass out he asked me out in front of everyone!! (haha u thought!! Just messing with yall :p)
I'll be completely honest with you guys, even then, i never did genuinely mean my feelings. I never felt anything more than liking him. I only said yes because I couldn't bear to say no to him and hurt his feelings. Its so cliche, asking me to be his girlfriend on Valentines day. ( did i mentioned, THROUGH INSTAGRAM?) pshh definitely could've done better but damn, no I wish i could show you guys the dm but i no longer have it with me unfortunately.

Writer's note: bear with me you guys!! Sorry if there are a lot of grammatical errors and mistakes, i hope you guys are enjoying it so far :3