𝐌𝐎𝐕𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐀𝐋𝐎𝐍𝐆~ 𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐔𝐌 𝐇𝐎𝐎𝐃

𝓇𝑜𝓁𝓁𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒾𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒹𝑒𝑒𝓅

Lorena's PoV

**play song when mentioned in story**

I woke up and got ready to head to my older brother JC's house. We were streaming with Kian, Franny and Kevin. We are going through a car wash but without the roof of the car on. Kind of crazy if you ask me. The only reason I'm going through with this is so he won't keep nagging me to see him and hangout more.

I got up and got dressed in what I hope will bring me protection in this because lord forbid i get hurt in this damn thing. Granted he told me no ones gotten hurt in it before so I guess that's some reassurance. As I walked out of my room and to the kitchen I was hit with the terrible memoirs that now flood that area. " Well shit now I got to find a new place" I told myself as I grabbed my car keys. As I rushed out the door I was trying to mentally prepare about what I was about to do.

As I approached the C4 house I saw the crappy car that had the top cut off of it. "Justin what in the actual fuck is this thing." I was yelling at him while walking toward him and the car. Justin moved and waved his arms around the car as it was some grand thing he was showing me. "This right here little Lolo is the carwash car babyyy" I just shook my head and walked toward the front door.

As I open the door I'm met by Barrie." hi lil barrie hi baby''I told him while rubbing his head. All of the sudden I feel someone picking me up from behind.I immediately started squealing " Is this the little Lolo ugh i missed youuu" Kian said while hugging me tightly.

Kian was like another brother to me having him and jc being so close automatically gave him that title. I haven't spoken to him in a while,but in my defence neither one of us had really made an effort to speak to each other although he knows I'm here for him. I know he's always here for me too.

"Hi kiki i missed you too bub." I said while trying to return the hug. "Ahh lorena i haven't seen you in so long either let her down dummy." Franny said, running over to us. As Kian put me down Franny tugged me into a tight embrace.

I would never tell them out loud but I missed the love and sense of belonging I felt with them. I would also never tell anyone how much this made me miss the 5sos boys. The day I met them I felt like I had known them my whole life. They always made sure I was ok and comfortable with them. I missed that comfort and love they always had for me. It kills me to know that I will probably never get that feeling with them or anybody for that matter.

"Ugh okay okay i missed you both but y'all are going to hug me to death and we have a car wash to do." I said while backing out the hug. " Also do yall know when it's happening because I'm a little tired." "Well Jc said we still had an hour and we're just waiting on Kevin. He's in a meeting." Franny said while walking back to the living room. " Okay imma be up in Jc's room if yall need me." I said while jogging upstairs.

As I got to his room I went straight to his weed stash pulling out a joint wand and I walked over to his cloud room and sparked the joint up. I took a hit inhaling and softly blowing out. I then reached for my phone connecting it to Jc's speaker hitting shuffle on one of my random playlist. Rolling in the deep by Adele came on. As soon as she started singing, so did I.

There's a fire starting in my heart Reaching a fever pitch and it's bringin' me out the dark Finally I can see you crystal clear Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your shit bare

I felt the tears start as well. See this is why i dont smoke much gets me too emotional. I feel like I always find a way to tie things back to him.

See how I'll leave with every piece of you Don't underestimate the things that I will do There's a fire starting in my heart Reaching a fever pitch and it's bringin' me out the dark

I knew that getting over him would be hard but this hurts too much. I don't want to keep feeling this pain. The tears started flowing steadily now as the song continued.

The scars of your love remind me of us They keep me thinking that we almost had it all The scars of your love, they leave me breathless I can't help feeling We could have had it all (You're gonna wish you never had met me) Rolling in the deep

The joint isn't helping. my chest is tightening and burning. It just all hurts .I got up and looked into Jc's mini fridge. As I looked into it the fridge i found casamigos."Well fuck it". I said grabbing the bottle and taking a swig. I just wanted to call and hear his voice again .

I can't help feeling We could have had it all (You're gonna wish you never had met me Rolling in the deep (Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep) You had my heart inside of your hand

I yelled out with all my might. As I grabbed the bottle, taking another swig of it down. As I felt the Alcohol working its magic I grabbed my phone and dialed down the number I had memorized by heart. I could hear pounding on the door knowing that they heard my screaming. I ignored it walking toward the cloud room again pressing the bright green button.

My ears filled with ringing as well as the pounding at the door suddenly it all stopped.

"Hello?" As I heard his voice I lost it.

The tears started flowing and suddenly i'm pulled into someone's chest and I just held on to them screaming out in pain and agony with how much I was missing my soulmate, the one person I really felt like I was ever whole with. The one that knew who I really was and what I really liked.

Calum Hood.

Sad times man.

xoxoxo Ara 🤠💜